Sociopath signs and symptoms
I've scoured the internet and this site trying to figure my SD out. I think I'm ready to leave this situation I'm in or at the very least disengage completely from my SD. My mental health is so damaged. My anxiety I out of control, even with medication I can barely get through my day and I fear I am beginning to slip into depression.
With that being said, I want real and honest thoughts, feelings, symptoms, signs, experiences... whatever you got regarding your young SD or SS that would help me come to terms that my own SD7 truly is a sociopath.
I will list her behavior in chronological order that I can remember:
-constant crying as an infant to the point that DH and I literally could not go out with her in public
-inability to play on her own
-reckless behavior/tantrums as a toddler. (i.e: throwing herself off of furniture, into walls, putting dents and holes in walls, busting her face up, bloodying her lips from hitting her face on beds and the floor)
-hitting animals as an older toddler. Trying to hurt dogs (pushing down on their back to make them yelp) hurting the cats at her mom's (squeezing them until they cry, getting cut up by he cats and continuing to do it because she thinks it's funny to hear them cry)
-touching her butthole and touching poop. Rubbing her butthole on furniture even after told not to
-As a 4/5 year old, touching her privates to the point that they were covered in scratches and bumps (after having several serious discussions about personal hygiene and that you don't scratch yourself like that)
-hitting older, and much larger sibling. Pushing her older sibling out of the shower and down in the shower.
-staring at others when they are undressed after being told that it's inappropriate and rude. Opening bathroom doors to look at people use the bathroom
-caught touching female dog's genitals aged 5. Lied about doing even after being caught doing it
-Lying about anything and everything (not kidding. Everything) lying to get others in trouble, including adults
-stealing items from school cafeteria
-pulling chunks of hair out
-hitting herself, biting herself, putting her throat against bed rails to cut her airway off and making herself choke/cough
-trying to push/pull me down the stairs. Including when I was pregnant
-throwing glass cups/mugs at me breaking glass all over the floor, multiple times
-spitting food in my face
-low IQ. ADD/ODD multiple learning disabilities.
-yelling at baby to stop screaming at her. Shaking baby's jumper. Climbing on top of bouncer while baby is in it. Holding laptop over her head, while standing over baby. Staring at babies genitals. Opening babies dirty diaper in trash to see poop
-saying she has the devil in her and her dad has the devil in him
-nightmares. Not sleeping most nights. Stands over me and stares me me while I sleep with baby
-says she sees things climbing up the ladder to her bed and she sees things moving around her room
-locked dogs in their kennel and told me she "doesn't want to hurt them"
-tries to knock DH down when he holds the baby
-no remorse or empathy for anything or anyone when she does things to them. Laughs at baby when he cries/in pain
-told her dad I locked her out of the house, aged 4 after throwing tantrum and kicking a hole in the wall
Theres so many more things. I just can't list them all. If you've read this far, thanks. I just want your honest opinion/thoughts. Does she sound disturbed? Am I being dramatic? What would you do? Would you push for a psychological evaluation? Would you stay in the house? I don't know what to do anymore. I want to leave, but I don't want to give up on her and my family.