I admit this one may still be semi off-topic, but it features contact with the former skids, so we're just going to roll with it.

Life is absolutely a ridiculous roller coaster, one day things are going great, the next day I'm frustrated, upset, my anxiety is through the roof, etc.   I'm having som breakdowns still, which mostly confuse me.  I know for a fact, I'm 100% over my ex.  I've told him to f*** off (pardon the language, I have the mouth of a sailer), he's not attractive at all (like seriously the he!! was I thinking???), and I don't feel any guilt for ignoring him anymore or blocking him for periods of time.  Whatever dellusional affection or attraction was once there, isn't there at this point.  Which feels great.

With the breakdowns my therapist has upped my therapy again.  She's also reccomended I consider other religious options and keep an open mind while I'm really figuring myself out for the first time in my life.

But fast forewarding to how this acutally involves the former skids and handling a man-child.  Last week my ex was, you guessed it, harassing me again.  Asked for me to unblock him on everything (gave him a fat no), to see my underwear (that didn't even warrant a response, dude is dense) and then followe dit with "we should get matching tattoos as friends (LMFAO he!! to the no).  So I was sick of it, considered blocking him, considered sending screens to his girlfriend.  Had a better idea,  Sent the screenshots to his mom, he's now on radio silence for over a week and it's the best.

Last weekend though. I got a facetime from an email address I didn't recognize, my first thought was "that's weird" and then I figured that I may as well answer since I can't remember the last time I got a spam facetime.  So I answer and boom SD7 is GRINNING. I'm obviously hella surprised and ask her where she's calling from.  She's calling from PSYCHO'S phone.  I'm like "uh... does she know?"  I get a "i dunno... I just saw your name and I missed you so I called."  I asked to talk to psycho a few times (because we all know how she is, constantly blowing up at them, taking things out on them, and last thing she needed was thinking that we were working behind her back.)  she kept rambling on, didn't ever give her the phone and then said she had to go because they were going somewhere. I was like "okay...."  Still confused. 

So to follow that up I sent Psycho a text, Just letting her know what was going on and thanking her for letting me talk to SD7, her response "I don't mind if she wants to call you.  I know you were a huge part of their lives and they both really miss you."  I'm still in shock.  Years of cussing me out, s*** talking me, shoving me, and when push came to shove, she's suddenly an adult.  I still don't plan to reach out to her phone, but it's nice to know if the girls need me they have a way to reach out.

Other personal news, my laundry room flooded, I'm doing repairs on the washing machine now, HOWEVER that's going great, and I actually lucked out and found literal tons (like the weight measurement) of tile for free.  So I now have enough to for sure redo my laundry room and it's looking like my bathroom may get a makeover as well. SUPER lucky find! 

Those are my updates, I hope you're all doing well, I still try and stop in occasionally to see how everyone is doing.