I know first off you're all going to think I'm crazy.  H asked for Counseling, I'm 200% FOR counseling, do I think it will save our marriage? Probs not TBH, even less so after the effects counseling had yesterday.  BUT,  I figure it can do some good, in my eyes it already has.

Some highlights from counseling:

So I'm having a rough day.  I knew what today was, obviously... I dunno who remembers it, October 31st was the day my cousin went missing while on a trail run.  November 1st was the first day of the search, and the day my mom called to tell me...

2.5 weeks down.  He's escalating hardcore...  He showed up to the gym when I was there... Tried to guilt me into coming back. Informed me that he's been a "changed man for 19 days now!!! And I should see just how permannent it is!"  Didn't like it when i said no.  And proceeded to inform me I was making a mistake... So i did a quick run through of his patterns for him from the last three years...

And I mean seriously. Who knew?! DH over a WEEK of separation, has been relentless.  Never ending messages, hounding me, sending random flowers and a gift to my work, etc.  It's been a MESS.  And he's been moody because I'm not communicating.

We've met up a few times to talk, are still coordinating kid stuff, but it's getting harder the crazier he acts.  I'm trying to be reasonable... BUT, idk that he is.   He's been obsessive, contantly trying to call. I woke up the other morning to 14 missed calls... Which is a no go in my book... sooooo....