I know I give this man too many chances. I do it because he does have good qualities. I just put all the bad things on here. But I don't think he understands relationships because of what he has been through.  We talked a lot about the lie and I told him he must be honest with me. He said he worries so much about my temper. I will admit that I do get angry but it is because he is is hard headed and I think that makes me raise my voice a little and get upset.  And just after this talk I now realized that all he thinks is a temper is my opinion not being his.

Things have been going really good. SD showed her true colors and  SO finally decided to leave me alone about not wanting to do anything with or for his kids. I have let him go thru football season going to partial football games on Friday nights (because SS is JV and doesn't really play) and going to all Saturday morning games without causing a fuss because I wasn't even asked to go.                                      

I am wondering what is going to happen this weekend when I don't go to senior night. I have toured several apartments and townhomes. I am sure it is going to get ugly. But anyway today SO wanted to pick up SS from practice because he hasn't seen him. That is not an issue but the issue is that SS said I will let you pick me up if you take me to the store and buy me(and it is something for sports , I am not sure ) because I stopped listening. So now in order for your dad to see you he has to buy you something. My goodness. Time for me to buy something for myself on his card.

You all know that SD does not want SO to walk with hwr in Senior night. I don't know where that stands at this point. But SO gets a text from BM about the senior cheerleaders having a dinner for them and the parents before the game. I have been told by SO I have to go with him.  I told him no. He of course isn't taking no for an answer and has ordered the tickets.  He said I have to do this for him and SD.  What type of abuse is this that he isn't respecting me.