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No need to respond to this post since you’ve all done so on my blog of 27th July. Dad went to heaven last night. I thought that I’d done my grieving during the last few weeks of his EOL decline but I was wrong; still have a long way to go.
Prior to DH attempting to end his life a few weeks ago, had a trip planned to CO which was a very much-needed break from skid-related stress, change of scenery, and to see my best friends. I was struggling too honestly and needed to try and get myself in a better headspace. DH talked me into still going and said he was 100% not going to do anything to hurt himself. I did believe him.
...has left the building.
Shell be on her way to college in six days. DH did good with her while she was here.
They talked, actually talked. He told her he and I were having some personal things to deal with and this I was in the guest room. He's out to dinner with her now, one last time before she goes back to BMs. She ate out TWICE while here, astounding.
So Chef has a new doctor that he likes. He is not pushy and militant like the former doctor. I noticed the difference when I went to him as well.
Chef is back on a new blood pressure medicine and on a statin for cholesterol which seems to have a calming effect! I'm not sure what it is about these meds but he has been actually sensible and reasonable (caveat to the best of Chef's ability which is not much).
I have to tell someone this because I need it off of my mind. SO will not let me be about not wanting to be involved with his kids right now. He pleaded with SD to go out to dinner this weekend and she finally said she will try. Not even a yes. He told me I have to go. Yes it became an argument. Then he tells me that I need to pick a day to volunteer at a game for SS. I told him I said I was done going to any games. He said he will show me the dates I can choose from. I said did you not hear me I am not doing that. He said it can wait a few days before I decide what night. Ugh.
Starry called DH last weekend and asked him if we wanted to hang out with them. DH responded by telling her that he was surpised she would want to spend time with us both because of how much she doesn't like me.
What do you guys think about the fact that I'm on maternity leave, we have a 9 month old baby and my partner still expects me to pay half of all the bills and rent (which I have been even though I have no income) ... even though our rent is thankfully cheap.
but here's the kicker, he has a 14 year old daughter (my SD) who we have full custody of, and he does not get child support from BM... when I asked him can she start supporting now that I'm on mat leave, he said he's not going to make her pay anything because moms don't pay child support.
So, this is what went down today:
Husband has been insisting I send a list to SD18 Powersulk Do Nada. Plus she needs to help with new puppy-who-pees-allover
I did this this morning (yep after you all told me not to and that I would be the "bad guy" again)
I get a response on this group text that "I am in so much pain, my calfs are giving out and I have a headache so I need a break today".
I just mentioned she can sit on a stool and watch puppy play outside.
Silence.
This is kind of piggy backing off my last blog, but saw this quote and feels we all need this today to keep this in mind just as much as I do; . It is so true and definiitely applies to StepHell IMO;
We got a puppy. This is to be Husbands puppy. My Dad jokes "dont let him raise that puppy like he raised his daughters!"
To his credit he is walking in the am and walking in the PM, and hes being gentle with the critter. He has my buy in and my blessings, but that took a while.