This is a lot so I'm gonna try to break it down as easily as possible.

I've been married to my husband for almost 1 year. We've been on and off (key word: on and off) for 9 years. All together he has 7 kids (two are my bio kids) 5 are bio. And 2 are not. The first non-bio kid of his is from one of his previous relationships whom he has one of his bio kids with. The second non-bio kid is my second born.

So here's the breakdown of his kids

Jordan (non bio) 13 y/o
Sean 12 y/o
Kayla (sister of first non bio) 10 y/o
Tatiana 9 y/o
Markus (my first born) 7 y/o
Amirah 1.5 y/o
Trey (my second born. His second non bio) 1.5 y/o

Every single kid has a different mother except mine (obviously) and Jordan and Kayla. So including me, there is 5 baby mothers. I have to deal with 4 different women.

When I first met him , he had 4 kids by 3 women. I was 'okay' with this. Except the fact that I was only 15 and was "in love". We had OUR first kid almost two years later. I grew to be close with his kids and baby moms. But him and I broke up a thousand times over the years. The most recent time we broke up, we both had one more child. Hence our "step-Irish twins". I was 7 months pregnant when we linked back up. His daughter was already almost 2 months old. He was in the hospital room when I gave birth. And we've been together since. His bio dad is hardly in the picture. And my husband has claimed him as his own. Therefore he calls him daddy and everything. He plans to adopt him. His latest baby mom had issues that caused dfs to give myself and my husband temporary sole guardianship right when I gave birth. From there, his baby mom disappeared for months at a time. We had her for close to a year before she started coming back around. In the meantime, I played mommy role for two newborns. And was completely okay with this. Until the bio mom came back in the picture and ripped it away. Now, the baby stays mostly with the mom and I want no parts in playing mommy anymore to her. Becuz of conflict of interest in raising her. But both my husband and her both think I should "babysit" when neither one of them is available to or has things to do becuz I'm unemployed at the moment.

Now, in addition to the baby issue. There are 3 other baby moms that I have to deal with. My husband works long hours. His schedule is never set. Therefore he can never be sure when he will have off or when he can get all his kids. But his baby moms will randomly say "they need someone to watch so-& so. Can u do it" and he will tell them yes. But will tell me that he told them that he will see what he can do. But then when it comes to the day they needed, here they come, but he ends up working. And I end up stuck with the kid(s). Second scenario (different baby mom) she will call him and say "you haven't seen so & so in x amount of weeks. You need to explain to her why u never see her" and then he gets on the phone with his kid and makes promises that he will try to get them this weekend. And the kids being young and excited think that means definite. So now his baby mom thinks he said they could come. And he refuses to correct them. So we end up getting the kids again while he works. And I'm stuck with them. Again.

My biggest issue is the fact that the kids should be coming to see their dad. But yet I'm the one that gets stuck with them. And secondly, I have two of my own young children that I try to pay attention to and can't seem to find the time and patience and energy to be able to after having to fight with him and his kids all week/weekend. I just feel like all his kids got mothers. If they come over, they should be over to see him. Not be stuck with me all day. I'm growing to resent both him and his kids. When they're here, I can't even be happy about it becuz I'm just fed up with being pulled in all these directions. Which is another issue. Since they all have diff moms, the living style is so diff. And when we get two or more of them at once and blend it with how I'm trying to raise my kids, it's just a circus. And I'm just so drained from all of this. At this point it just seems like it would be so much easier to just divorce him and be done with this whole imaginary blended family ish.