Reruns
Have you sometimes wondered if the same things happen to you over and over, if by some chance you got in the wrong line at the grocery store or something? Or maybe your hair color is wrong? I am once again having problems with my older dog-getting back to thinking he's demented or screwing with me. Most likely demented. I think he's just losing his faculties. And then, I am trying to resolve some issues with biomom about medical bills that she hasn't sent from SD that are now six mos old. And really I'm not in the mood to go another month and have it hanging over my head, unresolved. I just want it finished. So, I haven't paid her yet this month. You would think that would motivate her. But I guess she is collecting the checks together for her move-in deposits to her new residence somewhere. I really am not sure where she is these days, really don't want to talk to her at all, because all I hear is garbage. I just don't understand how hard it can be to do something simple like send a copy of a bill.
In other aspects, I feel like I am pushing myself to keep going. I don't know if it's the hot weather, probably not, probably something with me. I seem to lack the motivation and drive to even to do the most basic things but know I have to get them done. Laundry, cleaning, grocery shopping, bills, many mundane tasks--I can't get excited about them. I have had migraines for the last four to five days now without much reprieve and I wonder if this is what my existence will be like until the end of the obligatory support next May. Maybe that's why, I am trying so hard to get rid of any extra bills or things connected to biomom like the medical stuff, because I don't want anything extra left tying us to her for any reason. Just the bare minimum till I can completely cut everything off. I expect my husband will be a zombie tonight as he was up too late last night so I will most likely be alone with the dogs again. I don't mean to complain, it's kind of like, maybe I'm just talking because no one else is here.
I guess I'll just keep pushing myself to keep moving along and maybe things will fall into place for me.
Regards,
Sweetie
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I'm aquainted with the rerun
You can't get away from some things, those little chores that if you don't do it, it wont get done. That's one thing. What bugs me is when you repeat things you could have avoided. You know that you have done this before, then you ask yourself why. Why haven't I learned my lesson yet. I'm hoping I surprise myself soon & smarten up.
Inching Along
Hey Sherrylyn,
I have a 3 dogs by myself all day, but leave my spouse with the puppy for an hour, and there's a disaster in my brand new living area. That's probably why I don't feel like I make much progress. I keep the dogs confined to the kitchen area and yard all day so nothing in the house gets ruined. Everything is brand new--only six months old.
The problem with those avoidance chores, is that there is no one else who will do them. Maybe, that's why we never seem to learn anything from them. The clean up chore with the elderly dog is one of those that my husband suddenly and quickly disappears when there is a problem. In fact, I've never seen him move so fast. Actually, I am upstairs and hear him shrieking at the puppy right now. So, needless to say, it's gonna be another good evening. It's a wonder I don't have a drink in both hands every evening.
I really get frustrated at times with no one to talk to.