Follow up to "Breaking every single rule and essentially forget you" blog
http://www.steptalk.org/node/110905

I spoke to the CPS investigator, who is investigating SD13's allegations of sexual assault against the man from eight years ago.

I told her everything, including her "cutting" (scratching), saying she still thinks of killing herself, and her comments about how she thinks about hurting the baby. I also told her about how she does what she wants when she wants, including riding the bus to a friend's house after being told NO and telling the mother (after she got in trouble) that she was AFRAID to come home...
PAH LEAZE That girl is damn lucky. We don't spank, we don't scream; we give rational consequences for behaviors and unacceptable actions.

I told SD13 she ever do it again and I would call the cops and have her sent to JUVIE. As it is, I don't THINK she would hurt the baby, but I sleep in the nursery on a twin bed to "co-sleep" so I can hear and respond to him fast, and now I lock our door at night... so it did disturb/concern me to some degree and really concerned the CPS worker.

CPS worker said call mobile crisis or take her to the ER, otherwise, CPS could come and could take her in to therapeutic foster care, which is a last resort.

I am hopeful that she gets diagnosed with R.A.D. or borderline and treated appropriately **read that the right way - I hope she gets diagnosed with whatever the problem is so it can be addressed and helped NOT NOT NOT that I WANT her to have a mental health problem -- I would give anything for her to snap out of it and go back to being my "little hunny bunny" that I raised the past nine years. As much as I get mad and vent here, I do it so I DON'T act angry or say something I would regret in real life. So sometimes it makes me look like a douche here, but at least that means I never say anything that I say here in real life to DH or SD13 and I can try to be supportive and calm and control my agitation at her when she does the nonstop lying and BS she pulls.

I pray to God she wasn't sexually assaulted as a child, but I think it's true, so now all I can hope for is that she gets treatment...and that I keep my baby safe from her of course if she does think about hurting him.

(Sorry I ramble so bad)

POINT OF UPDATE: We are calling mobile crisis tonight and asking them to take her and get her admitted.