A big thank you to all you guys who commented on my last blog! I think of leaving him over and over. The only reason I am still sticking around is because he's very loving towards me when we are alone with each other, nothing to do with his kids. He gets so defensive whenever I mentioned any improper behavior of his kids. I believe he has guilty dad syndrome, a lot of time he really is just letting his kids grow freely then parenting them. For me, I see them as roommates and I flat out told him that last night but I didn't tell him I honest don't like having roommates.

Today when he came home from work, he asked me if I were mad at him because of all the things that happened. He asked me to take my time and said there was no need to make any decision yet, we would both see if we could work together. Now I am not sure how this "work together" is going to be like. The one thing I have noticed is that his thoughts change from time to time, a bit fickle. His kids (whom I refer to as trolls when I feel irritated by them) are here till Sunday, it is their weekend, I am not exactly in a happy mood right now but trying to tolerate. The weekend seems awfully long when they are here so I am just going to sleep in as much as I can to let the day passes faster. All I am hoping is to feel less uncomfortable with them around, can it really happen over time? Well, at least BF promised no fire will be built close to the house again.