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So, really...God and this step-mess!

herewegoagain's picture

So I've been thinking...if there truly is a God, why does he allow CP witches to drain our families' finances & souls? It's like the CP can continúe their life, but anyone who marries an NCP father is thrown to the coals. I mean, if DH had cheated on the witch with me, I would understand the Karma...but hell! He didn't know me! She remarried 3 days after their divorce! She hides her husband so he doesn't have to pay cs! I never did that! Our son and our family aré the only ones to sacrifice...I am sick of the sacrifice, while that poor excuse for a mother lives off of us! And does a pathetic job of raising kids.

Once again I told my DH off...he tells me we have 200USD in our acct for the next 6 days! And even after he gets paid, we'll have less than that until mid-April! All while his slutty daughter pops out a kid, fails school, etc...and he won't go to child support to get his cs lowered...he claims he's tried before. So my son & I have to do without all the freaking time...so he can support that loser!

Oh, is it because I hate them so much that God is punishing us? Or is it that I am fed up with the God bs? Yes, I was good. Yes, I was fair. I am sick of this.

I stopped working because we couldn't find anyone to take care of our son while I worked, without having to pay more than I made in a month! I don't even have a car! My life is crap since I made the stupid decision to be w/a divorced man...and you know? If God is watching, I say "do you get a thrill out of ruining people's lives as long as they are responsible and honest? Do you help put pathetic ex-wives? You must think slutty women deserve more than hard working & responsible women.

Sorry, but after 12yrs of this bs, I have to say I have zero faith in God...

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12yrstepmonster's picture

I spent the first 10 years not thinking that God was involved in it. It's amazing for the last 2 I have believed that I can turn my troubles over and they become lesser. BUt that has been my experience and alot led up to that epiphany in my life.

I think in your situation though I would sit down with my DH and make a plan...maybe you can't work during the day because of the cost of daycare, can you work when DH can take care of your child? Can you babysit? Or find work at home jobs? If you possibly qualify for food stamps, you might qualify for assistance with daycare.

All just thoughts and I completely understand the living from paycheck to paycheck as well as feeling like the world is crashing in on you.

herewegoagain's picture

I am praying my old job, from which I worked at home can re-hire me...but if they do (spoke to them, no guarantee or date), I will not help our household. I will leave and he can fend for himself until he's done paying that witch! His daughter will be 17 in September...she is in 9th grade w/a little baby!)

what-was-I-thinking's picture

OMG!! 17 & in the 9th grade!?!?!!?! that is crazy! I hope for your sanity you get your old job back so you can leave. Sounds like you really need a break from the MADNESS!!! Good luck my friend!

Hatecopycats's picture

As a non believer ....my motto is " the universe is indifferent "

I don't believe people are blessed or cursed. I don't believe people always get what they deserve, they get what they get. ....some of it is luck, some of it is our choices.

One thing I truly enjoy about not believing is I don't get mad and blame things on a God or feel he has let me down......

Hang in there....I hope things get better for you.

herewegoagain's picture

I like your view Hatecopycats! I agree.

Things won't get better unless I do something drastic...but I'm just trying to balance out if I should just leave or stay. My son wants his daddy...but I will not stay and let him live off me anymore...I supported his pathetic daughter, family and him for years...and if he can't support me and my son, then too bad...I'll leave and support myself...and if I don't, any money I could make will be MINE and MINE only...for ME and MY SON...that means no vacation for DH at all...too bad...you live with what YOU were dealt with...your problem for sleeping with a slut...