Today I have decided (once again) that I am going to try with my SO's kids ONE LAST TIME. I will go in with an open mind and whatever has happened or said I will attempt to let it go and start fresh. I am only doing this because having this much resentment is killing me and I don't like being so negative. Not only that I truly love my SO very much and he is so good to me and so good to my bio children and my bio children love him so much. But this is it! I told my SO this is it too.

I told him I need him to step up to the plate and help me raise his children because it wasn't my responsibilty to do it all myself and I was NOT a maid or nanny. He says he will support me and he is on board. I did tell him the next step was totally disengaging but I would not do it right now especially if I am going to try once again. If this honestly doesn't work then maybe I may just have to skip the disengaging and walk away completely because I am at my wits end.

Let's see...the girls come back to us on Tuesday.