Yesterday, when I got out of my meeting I found that CPS had tried to contact me. For some reason, they switched the case worker/social worker. This man did not have any of the information that I had given the first women. He didn't even have my husband's number. I thought this was a bit strange, but I've seen similar things happen in my company. So I gave him my husband's number and encouraged him to contact him to gather even more historical information regarding BM's past drug and alcohol abuse. He asked me if I knew where the BM was staying. I told him that she had told us that she had turned back on the electricity and that she and the kids were back in the house.

The case manager seemed perplexed and told me that he had gone to the house at 8 p.m. on Wednesday night. He said that there were no lights on and that there were no cars in the driveway. I didn't think much about this until he told me that he went back that morning and the note he left in the door had not been moved, so he had no reason to believe that she was living at the home. He asked me if I knew of anyone who might know her whereabouts. I gave him her work address and phone number. I also gave him her mother's phone number.

Then I did something that may not have been a good move, but after hearing that she lied about being back in the house I got that same sickening feeling in my stomach. So I said to this man, "I don't know if you have children, but even if you don't try to picture someone else in your family who you love very much. My husband and I don't know where our children are at; we can't sleep at night, we are worried beyond belief, and neither of us have gone to sleep without crying for almost a week. She has a history of drug abuse, the oldest one swears she's using again, and the last known place that she stayed was the home of a meth addict, IV drug use, who also has Hepatitis C. I know that you must have a stack of cases of children in similar situations or maybe even worse situations; I'm a social worker too, and there aren't enough hours in the day to truly do everything needed in my job either. If we could go door to door looking for them we would, but you and I both know that even if we found them, the laws wouldn't let us take them home with us. I understand that these children aren't mine biologically, but my husband and I are scared, we are begging you to help us, and to help us protect our babies."

The CPS worker was quiet for a while, and then thanked me for the information and for doing so much footwork for him. He then said he would call if he had any other questions, but he was going to try and find her at work.

I immediately called my husband and told him what happened. He was just sick that she lied about being back in the house. I was amazed that he actually believed her!!! But I didn't say anything, I mean what good would it be to show my shock that he would put faith in anything his ex-wife would say.

Then he called me later that day and told me that his job was making him travel to a different state today and that he may not be able to go and get the kids. I told him that it wasn't an option and that I would go. He was worried what the BM would do to me, say to me, or accuse me of if he wasn't there. He even wondered if she could keep the kids from going home with me. So, I made arrangements with a friend of mine to ride with me to pick up the kids. I'm also going to bring a digital tape recorder with me, just in case. I also need to find out what our laws are regarding the trade off of children from BM to SM. If she has to give them to me and refuses, I will call the police, but if it isn't illegal, I don't know what to do. Of course, BF is going to try and get home in time.