LOL-AS I predicted....the exh wants to take a trip out of the country to go 'meet' his new fiance/girlfriend. THey apparently knew eachother in HS-and have started a long distance relationship (in different countries no less). So w/in 4 weeks of them talking he's sporting a silver engagement ring (traditional for that country, both men and women wear silver bands).

So all of this is all odd to us, but he's wanting to go down there to see her-which is of course expected_i'm happy he may have foudn someone....BUT....not only will you be asking me to swap a weekend w/the kids again, you ALSO get a week vacation to yourself (which I have had one in 7yrs divorced)...but then you ask me for a buddy pass from my job to go down there? LOL OH LORDY>>>>>>>

I'll probably give it to him, whatever....but wouldn't you at least buy your own tkt? Who asks the exwife to help you out to go meet/unite with your new gf/fiance??? Especially when in 7 yrs you have done nothing but excuse your father responsibilities.

I'm just so upset these days w/taking the whole load all the time, always taking my time off work for the kids, always having the breaks, holidays, long weekends, vacation, summer....while he does minimum. Then bf or his parents help his ex out whenever she wants free time, she gets summer weeks, long weekends, holidays, etc....and that adds one more kid to me. I feel totally overwhelmed, stressed, anxiety ridden because of the load I carry....i can't cope right. I feel taken advantage of, burdened, never a break...but yet everybody else gets one....adn then of course you have the exh and the bf w/opinions about my bios-my parenting, or what I should do differently----when they (as NCP's) never have to do the hard work to raise the kids or make efforts to do more for their kids. F the whole lot of them....I'm not even pms'ing and i'm ready to run away again..this happens SO often where I feel I have to just RUN, fast, and hide out somewhere.

In addition, my parents just left the country for a while-was going to be one month, now it's looking like 2 or 3-they are my main support system w/the kids because the ex never does a damn thing....so now I don't have that either-my job is extremely stressful, learning new things, I feel isolated from my girlfriends, my to do list is never ending, i have so much to organize in my life...w/excessive homework, finances are tough...i'm still being a single parent in every sense, except i have a boyfriend. I don't get the help i need, ever...adn he then gets annoyed with me when i'm in my 'woe is me' mood and wants me to be all bubbly, sparkly when I'm busting my ass w/no relief in site. I want out of my life, all of it-but of course there IS no out, just one day at a time. There's my vent for the day. Is there a light somewhere?