Shocker, I am not perfect...
But then nobody is.
I am not perfect. I make mistakes - I STILL make SM mistakes after 11++ years of this. I realize that most of thos mistakes are emotionally driven - I am sick and tired of BM's BullSh*t, it piles on and on and finally I have a weak moment. By comparison my weak moments are not that bad, I dont curse BM out to the kids - perhaps I am not nice (how about we call it blatent truthfulness, not sugar coating)..
BUT HONESTLY - its about FRIGGIN TIME that BM lets go/gets over whatever it is that eats her cold, blacken heart about me. I am EXHAUSTED keeping up with defending myself, trying to play nice with SK's, watching what I say (when she can parade around like no ones business about me) - *I* am not a bad person, *I* am not BM's problem - BM's problem is HERSELF....
...only 5 more years...
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I'd be lying if I didn't say
I'd be lying if I didn't say I wonder what BM is going to do once the sks are 18. Its unfortunate that she chooses to pass along her cold blacken heart to them.
Oh, I remember the days of
Oh, I remember the days of being oh so careful of everything I said or left out in plain view. That's what I hated most about SD's visits. Thank God those stopped when she was 15/16. Now she is 22, and although I still don't say anything to her about BM, I have heard my husband say, "Well, your mother is psycho."
Don't bother defending yourself. Waste of time and energy.
Unfortunately I am having to
Unfortunately I am having to defend myself to court appointed mediators who buy into her bullsh*t
Oh, I see, that sucks. That
Oh, I see, that sucks. That would really piss me off!
one time when DH and I were
one time when DH and I were having it out I was crying and I yelled at him "I feel like wonder women." and I held up my forearm like it was a shield and pointed at the front and said" I feel like I constantly have shit pinging off my sheild. It is exhausting!!!!!!!!!!!
I was blazing pissed so you can imagine the dramatics that went along with that statement but, it's true. Cant ya just hear the shit pinging off your wonder women shield?
And, it is exhausting!!!!!