I have officially been in stephell almost 2 years, unofficially 4 years. DH and I have been together 5 years, almost 2 years married. I remember year 2 when DH and I were dating, we decided we were serious and it was time for the kids to meet us. I remember having very little issues with his kids, they were like 4 and 7 at the time.

They would come visit at my apartment that DH moved into. I don't think they knew DH technically lived there but they were on their best behavior. Here it is and they are almost 12 and 9, I start having paniac attacks when I know they are coming over for the weekend. The things I tolerated when they are younger haven't stopped.

Like for instance, the clingy "dadddiiieee, I luuuuvvvv youuuuu daddiiiee" from a 11 and 8 year old is beyond annoying. Yes they were clingy back when I first met him but I attributed that to them being young and not knowing me. SDs seem to think the world revolves around them and what they want to do. DH seems to think it does too so no surprise they act like toddlers.

I guess I ignored things because I thought it was an age/maturity issue not a SD issue. I use to feel like I was the mistress and his ex-W was still his wife, maybe this was my issue. But they were friendly and I thought ok at least he's not calling her a See you next tuesday like my idiot ex-H did to me. Now it's an annoyance, a fight waiting to happen, I can't stand the contact she has with my husband-Period.

DH and I had a fight sunday which will continue until the sunday the SDs leave. It's my daughter's bday on the 27th (ssbt 10) and his youngest (ssbt 9). Last year it was so much drama after they left I wanted to scream. DH and told his daughter, why I am not sure, that I WAS MAKING 2 CAKES. Ok, I told dh I would and both would be small. However, I didn't know that my kids would be having dental surgery right before, I knew they had appointments but it became teeth pulling.

So therefore it was stupid to MAKE TWO CAKES, so I didn't. SD7turning8 then ran home to BM and told her she had to OMG SHARE A CAKE with my BD8turning9. OH the humanity seriously, if they were both our children we would have one dang cake, get over it. DH went to explaining and appeasing BM and I told DH to tell her to F OFF. I vowed to be done. I didn't make another cake until my one year's old bday party in september.

Now it's that time a year again, my daughter's birthday is next week but my weekend is this weekend and it's his youngest sd's birthday on this sunday. So my BD asked me to please make her a barbie/frozen Elsa cake. I can't say no and I don't want to. So I say to DH, I'm making this cake, are they sharing, what are you planning? DH says I haven't thought about it in his usual duh DH mode.

Later we are at walmart and DH is looking at some camo cakes. I say what are you doing? DH had stopped while walking behind me and didn't say anything. DH says I'm thinking about getting this cake for SD8 or SD11's birthday. I said "cool so you're making that" DH gets all huffy and says "yeah I guess so". How can DH first off assume I'm going to make AN ADDITIONAL cake for HIS KID? Really?

Then sunday we are riding home from visiting the in-laws and out of the blue DH says "oh when OSD comes over this weekend, she'll have PINK hair" I was like temporary, permanent, WHAT?? PINK hair?? I'm sure you could imagine me thinking this 11 year old's whole head is pink. He says you know like the teenagers have been doing the pink at the bottom. UGH!

I asked DH when did you find this out. OH SHE meaning BM text me earlier a picture of it and then proceeds to show me. I felt my blood boil. I just let it all go. I don't understand why she has to text you stuff like this, it's like you two are still together. DH just says, that she wrote OSD wanted to send you this, yeah ok BM, OSD has her OWN IPHONE.

It causes another fight about boundaries as usual. I guess I'm so over the fact that he's had ZERO boundaries that ONE LITTLE thing sets me off. DH just says well OSD must have wanted me to see. Did BM or OSD ask your opinion before it happened? NO so why does it matter right now in the middle of our NON SD weekend to send it to you. DH just says I didn't respond, what do you want me to do?

I told him I was aware that there have been times where their talks weren't of the kids and brought up the random text BM sent about him wanting a sugar glider and sending him an advertisement from an FB group and him telling her we may have to get rid of the dog because we couldn't afford him. (seriously)

I know he can't stop her communications but damn, he can ignore Jabba the Slut unless it's serious. He doesn't he engages with her. I told him that he should have just stayed with her and that he was emeshed with her anyways. DH acted dumb like I was talking a different language. And in true DH form, he brings up my ex and how he doesn't tell me things and how he's sorry he doesn't share things with me. UMMM DH, I talk to my kids and see them 3 to 5 days a week. I don't need my ex to tell me what my bs13 and bd9 are doing, they can talk very well ever since they were 2.

I told him if I was sending off texts to my ex with hair color changes and etc. that he'd have an issue of course he says he wouldn't, I call BS on that because I've proven it. Anyways.

Here it is why is it that society now a days thinks it's ok to have a friendly/talky relationship with your ex and if your current wife has an issues, it's her issue not a boundary issue? Why is it that 11 year olds are toting around Iphones, wearing tight/inappropriate clothes, dying their hair colors and it's all cool?

My son is almost 14, in a few months, he doesn't have an iphone and he is treated like a CHILD. Do I bathe him? NO Do I change his clothes? NO Does he dictate when he will come to my house or his dad's? NO Does he decide what clothes I will buy him and if they are appropriate for his age? NO

I'm done, dh can have BM and his two kids, they come first anyways. I will lookout for mine and our DD because he won't. I'm trying to get my ducks in a row because it's becoming quickly apparent I will just get in my car one day and not come back.

DH said I was giving him attitude this morning. Grrr I hate liars or for someone to say they are going to do xyz and dont. Maybe I have control issues I dont know. But it's stupid but with everything else, it set my mood to B*tch today. DH says I'm going to call you to remind you to put the sewer treatment in before you leave the house.

I said OK. Did he call? Nope. I told him I had alot to do, why not add one more thing. DH didn't call or text a word to me this morning until I text him "I did everything". Then it was another 40 minutes before he even responded to that. He left at 2:30am to go back to work in another state for the week. He was already at work when I text him, or should have been. So we had a few words because I admit I'm still pissed over other stuff and I am being a B*tch.

So like 20 minutes later, I get the random apology text - "I'm sorry for whatever I did. I love you with all my heart" WTF DH? Would you accept that? I just went along my routine, dropping off DD18mo, getting into work etc. Then because I didn't respond he went on my FB and wrote "I love you". Seriously DH? He never does this unless he thinks I'm mad.

I've barely heard from him which I'm kinda glad. The few texts he writes, "I love you" I respond "love you".......then he says "DO YOU?"

OMG Fing gosh seriously. Mentally I am just done, physically I am just sick, financially I am not ready. I just can't anymore, I just can't. Sorry for the rant but it had to come out of my head before it exploded.

I know I don't have it as bad as some and I would have been hitting the door like along time ago if I had these SKs more than we do.