Antidepressant Med: Citalopram
My doctor prescribed an anti-depression medication for me. This is the first time I have ever requested medication for my depression.
But I have to say that I am noticing a difference after only taking it for less than 2 weeks. I am not as angry. I don't freak out at the drop of a dime. I am not screaming at my still very bratty SD (9). I am able to deal with her horrible behavior more rationally. And my mood has been more calm. The only side affect was the first day I took it, it make me drowsy and I was knocked out for a few hours. But that only happened once. After that - I have not expereinced any side affects.
My youngest step daughter is still a little b*tch. But at least my reaction to things aren't as extreme now. I hope that the medication continues to help me. My therapist said its a good sign. And that my SD (9) may see that she can't get me to react as much and will lose interest in torturing me. We shall see.
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I may ask my Dr about it.
I may ask my Dr about it. I've never had any luck with antidepressants as they usually knock me out and make me so numb that I have no motive to do anything (which I already have at the moment with trying to move on from this horrible marriage and SD.
Right now I'm just taking xanax when I'm overwhelmed with sadness or anxiety about what's going on. But that really makes me tired and I don't drive on it. So taking some else less strong and every day might help me more.
My situation is different
My situation is different now. I am being left by my H for another woman after 6 years of trying to help him raise his borderline daughter. We have a 4 yo daughter together too, so it's not like I will be able to be rid of him and SD from influencing my life, just not as much.
I wish I would have tried antidepressants when they might have helped me let go of a lot of the issues with my SD. Not that I am at fault for my H's actions, but SD's issues put a huge strain on my marriage b/c I couldn't function well with a teen raging and baiting me all the time. And my H finally shut down to caring about me at all.
Sorry to hear that it turned
Sorry to hear that it turned out this way. It totally is not your fault that your Hubby is leaving you for someone else. Your SD issues are just going to be carried on to the next woman. So the new woman will deal with the same issues.
If you hubby could not understand the situation, and love you unconditionally - it is his lose. I hope that you and your daughter are able to transition on with little to no drama or stress. Good luck.
Hi Furie, I understand your
Hi Furie,
I understand your point. But I love my husband and oldest SD(11). I would hate to give up the love of my life because some little brat (SD 9) decided she wanted to make my life a living hell. Sometimes, a situation takes all that you can throw at it to make it work. I will take antidepressants if it means that I can save my own sanity and still exisit in a marriage that is absolutely worth saving and fighting for.
Therealmom