First, I want to thank everyone that commented on my last blog entry. After reading some of your comments I feel...empowered? I have decided:

*I am not going to let fmil drag me into the darkside with her.
- I am educated.
- I am attractive.
- I am smart.
- And I am going to love her son and his children no matter what.

There is nothing she can do. If she chooses to be miserable the rest of her life, that is her fault then. At first we got along really well...then when she realized that spark her son had for me - she turned evil. When the girls warmed up to me, she got worse. She degraded me for not having kids. Did I mention she just sits around all day and watches :A baby story:? It's like she wants to be having a baby again? Gross. Anyway- So, fine. Let her act like an idiot. I need to be happy again...like I was before she came into my life. I can't let someone who is below me, rise above me. NO WAY! So thank you for some inspiration!

Now, I do have a small rant. The BM has moved out of boyfriend's house again and she has moved herself and the kids in with her sister and kids. My heart is broken when it comes to the girls. This is the 9th time they have moved in the last 3 years...FH and I counted. No wonder they have behaviorial problems. They have no stability. I am working so hard in school to make sure I make lots of money when I graduate. I have to give them everything. We have to get custody of them. I have so much love for them. It doesn't matter how much they may get on my nerves, how much they backtalk, how many temper tantrums they take, and how many times they may be in time out...they love me and I love them.

Now, I have taken everyone's advice and quit sending home the "good" clothes that I have purchased...Every weekend, I change them when they come in the door, wash their clothes they wore to the house, and send them home in them the next day. However, we picked them up yesterday and fsd7 looked at me and said, "My mom said you have to buy me new snowboots. Sissy has my old ones..." As she is saying this I am looking at her feet and she is wearing a brand new pair of Nikes. Now, I had new boots at fh's house for them, however, I've been keeping them their and they wear them when they are with us. They are not "play in the snow boots." Just cute boots with rubber bottoms and one has a pink pair and one has a brown pair. They have a pattern and some fur on them. They also had two other brand new pairs of shoes at the house. We have snow outside. So, I decided I would let them take them home but...I wrote a note to BM and stuck it in the bag. It was simple:

Please send their new shoes back with them next weekend. Also, I let them wear their new boots home because of the snow. The boots are for them to wear to school and what not. Please do not let them play in the snow, go sled riding, etc. in them. They may fall apart, they are suede.

FH said it was a good note and straight to the point.

Now another issue I have...FMIL shows favortism really bad toward FH's oldest daughter. That's all you hear about is her. She tells her that when she was born she was the most beautiful baby she had ever seen....(I've seen pictures...trust me...cuter babies have been born.) She tells fsd5 that she looked like a monkey and she had no clue what she was...she tells fsd7 that she loves her so much...and she's always trying to feed her what she is eating. She ignores fsd5 and says everything is always her fault? She usually ignores fsd7's behavior. I really want to sit down with her and address this situation BUT she is sooo unreasonable. My fbil's ex wife stood up to her and now fmil hates her and they are divorced...When you stand up to her she loses it...I have tried this before and she went NUTS! Do I let it alone? Should FH and I wait until we get out of there to bring up the subject? Any advice?

Thanks again ya'll!