I have had one of the most stressful years of my life and I just can't let go of most of it.

In one year I have taken on the roll as step parent to a 3 year old boy and a 5 year old girl, who mind you, are completely out of control. Not to mention that I have my own daughter. I have had to deal with my ex's BS. Thought he kidnapped my daughter beacuse he took her camping and just didn't bring her home or call and his phone was off. You want to talk about stress. I had the police in two different counties looking for them, forest service, and everybody I know. Turns out he just thought that he would keep her a couple of extra days and not call me. Meaning I was drunk and wanted to party with my drinking buddies. I have since taken full custody of her due to his repeated drinking and driving with her in the car as well as other drug habits. I have had to put up with fighting with my BF over him stepping up and being a parent and not letting his kids run wild, undermining my authority in front of the kids, and not standing up to his EW. I have lost a pregnancy and had to put up with the crazy BM.

I have gotten to the point where everything has built up so much throughout the year that I feel broken. It's so much in such a short amount of time. I just don't know how to deal with it and let go. I want to, but I just don't even know where to begin. I can't even identify with how I feel inside.

My BF thinks that it's easy to deal with this and I need to stop dwelling on things and get over it. I really don't feel like he's being very supportive. And I think he's failing to see things from my point of view.