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Stressed out!! Panic attacks and now sightings!!!

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Submitted by zenjetset on Mon, 10/04/2010 - 5:50pm

I had a major panic attack last night while dh and I argued about stupid bm. It was a very bad ending to a very bad weekend. A weekend that SD11 made impossible to enjoy but contantly beating her sister6. Including tipping over the lounge chair while the child was laying there and the outcome -- a cut above her eye.

Then, today I've had two sightings of my x who terrorized me for 2 years and attempted to kill me! Not that he was actually here, just that my brain is thinking so because of all the stress sd11 has me feeling.

This child abuses her sister like he abused me. All the verbal and physical abuse is reminding me of my situation. I can't stand it!!! I don't know how to deal with this. I'm feeling very on edge and close to a nervous breakdown. I'm going to die of a heart attack if I continue like this.

I feel like I should go and get some help tomorrow. Unfortantely I am not prepared don't have a doctor here since I recently moved to this state. All this is happening to me because of my stupid stepdaughter.

I was on the dcf site and got the number. I'm thinking of filing a report because I'm really worried about the safety of sd6. I just need to speak to fh.

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Submitted by zenjetset on Mon, 10/04/2010 - 7:17pm

Thanks AD. *hugs*

I don't have a doctor, I found some mental health centers locally that I will call tomorrow and hopefully get some meds and help. Hopefully with both life will become more normal for me.

It's so hard to take care of yourself when you are worried about everyone else and trying to do the "right thing" becomes more and more difficult.

I just finished speaking with my fh and we will be calling DFC tomorrow to file a report concerning the abuse the sd11 is subjecting sd6 to. The more I thought about it the more I started to feel that it's just not right to sit by and do nothing. After all, would I sit by and do nothing if an adult friend of mine was being abused? no! I wouldn't be able to, so I determined it's best to report it.

I remember in March sd11 would only slap sd6, but now she slaps, pinches, stratches, pull her hair, stomps on her, kicking her, etc. It's not getting better and I feel like I contribute to the situation by standing idle.

Thanks for the support. I appreciate it.