remembering shit.....
just sittin around last night thinking about how fucked up my life has been and the stupid shit bf did through the years. i guess i could call him exbf from now on.
by the end, it was crystal clear our relationship was shot, maybe even a long time before. we had no trust for each other, snuck around to do things (not cheating--that i know of for sure) for example, him sneaking food over to sd's poor friends house. yes these people were poor, BUT her friend is 18, lives with his momma, doesnt work but manages to buy cigs and i KNOW drugs. the mother doesnt work and receives foodstamps. exbf felt SORRY for them so one night he went to pick up sd from there and BROUGHT OVER A JAR OF PB AND A LOAF OD BREAD. um, i didnt go to publix for bogo's just so he can feed white trash who have money for cigs and drugs but not food.
he would sneak sd money as well. he would complain to me about how she asked for money, but it was a cover-up, he was waiting to see my reaction. of course i disagreed, but he would give it to her anyways. same with BM. BM constantly asking for money and rides and the use of the car. when i went to VA for 2 weeks this summer, he let BM borrow the car. MY car. he told my parents i said he could use it (which i did) but HE LET HER FUCKIN USE IT!!!!!
he claims he has his mother's "heart of gold" and cant help feeling bad for others and wanting to help them...um, what about ME and BD?!? having to deal with HIS mistake sd, bm, all the bullshit!!!!!!! why didnt he feel bad for US and help US?!?
cause he simply didnt have enough love for all of us.
Sometimes I think with some
Sometimes I think with some of those men, they think gracing us with their presence should be help enough, and that's why everyone else gets all the support, money, etc!
Lol!
Sometimes I think with some
Sometimes I think with some of those men, they think gracing us with their presence should be help enough, and that's why everyone else gets all the support, money, etc!
Lol!
DDTX, you LOL but I think you
DDTX, you LOL but I think you hit the nail on the head there.
I love it when people go
I love it when people go around claiming to have a heart of gold and spouting off how generous they are and blah, blah, blah. This is our BM. If you were such a great person, you wouldn't have to go around telling everybody how great you are.
In my opinion, she is just trying to make a good impression on people who don't yet know who she really is.
I have nothing to offer people who claim to be broke yet have money for cigarettes, booze, and drugs. Yes, please, enable them further.
Helping others is great IF
Helping others is great IF you take care of home first.
Kinda stupid to feed the needy when your own family is starving.
I find myself in a damned if
I find myself in a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation.
I'm very independent. I know how to fix plumbing, change the oil in the car, etc. My DH used to bend over backwards for the BM running the SK's here and there (even when they were with her because she "didn't feel like" taking them to practice, school). But when it came to helping me out.... NADA.
You know what he had the nerve to say to me?? "But you are so self-sufficient, you dont' NEED my help."
The one thing I have prided myself on has now screwed me. And DH even said that my independence is one of the things that he fell in love with. Now I know why, because it allows him more time to kiss BM's ass.
oh i know what u mean.
oh i know what u mean. whenever i asked exbf to do something, it was 'ok in a min' but the second sd or bm wanted something, he did it right away.
when i had bd6 2 motnhs early via emergency c-section, i was told to do nothing for the first 2 weeks...3 days later, im back to normal routine cause NO ONE was around to help me, not exmil, not bm (exbf was working) not MY family or exbil....NO FUCKIN ONE.
so maybe women need to act stupid still like in the 5o's or whatever so the "MEN" will grow balls and do shit???
Charity begins at home the
Charity begins at home the old folks used to say. They're all gone now so I guess I'm the old folk.
He would be unable to grasp that concept however. He gets his rush in the giving and once the giving is over the rush is over. He's no longer the hero, no longer getting the smile, so he has to do it over and over.
Just like the shopper who just takes the stuff home and never uses it, may never even unwrap it. Its a mental disease which feeds some bottomless pit of need in their psyche.
It's a good thing you didn't have children with him.
i did...bd6 is mine and his.
i did...bd6 is mine and his.
yeah bm had 'asthma' problems
yeah bm had 'asthma' problems so she went to the hospital. exmil was MIA. i left the hospital the next afternoon and the nurses were like "how r u up and walking? arent u in pain? the other c-sections havent even sat up in bed yet!" uh, well my preeemie was taken to another hospital an hr away, so yeah i want to get the fuck out of here!
another memory: when pregnant, i wanted some water, it was middle of the night and i was so tired and weak...exbf tried convincing me i wasnt thirsty....but yet i had to hear bm pregnant stories, about how one day she wanted crazy bread from lil ceasars and he and exbil drove around for hrs till store opened....fuck i hate him.