So I am on the Pto b/c I have felt the need to prove myself as a loving and super stepmom since the begining. I have been sick for 2 wks. Which I posted before w/ asthma problems, pneumonia, and other stuff. So today was the first day I tried to leave the house and go do something with my mom. We went and did some shopping for the pto and then we went to lunch. Now I am over weight and have been for a couple yrs now. But I couldnt even walk around the store. I have no energy at all. My body feels numb and I feel lightheaded. I have to go to a pto event tonight and there isnt enough energy in my body to get off the couch. And the thing that makes me even more upset is that no one thinks wow thats great she does stuff for the school. I get well ur an ass because you do for the school. Hello I am doing it for your kid/grandkid to have a better school. Ugh. I am so over being sick and so over my life. I was so excited to be able to go out today and to be going back to work sunday now I am just really scared because how am I going to work for 8 hrs as a chef when I cant even walk around a freakin store without truely truely feeling like a 500 lbs 80 yr old person? I just needed to vent thank you ST friends for listening. God Bless.