Three days til Christmas and I have NO idea if SD15 is going to be visiting for any part of the holiday.

I'm fighting off the knots in my stomach about the impending doom a visit will bring. I'm sure all current plans will be thrown out the window if SD decides to grace us with her presence. My baby brother is on a church mission and only gets to call home twice a year. The time for the call has been set for Christmas morning so the whole family can talk to him. I'm absolutely sure that will be the time SD will needs to be picked up and BF will want to take her to MIL's.

BF has no set custody arrangement for holidays, so Christmas and Thanksgiving in particular are more Hellidays than Holidays. SD15 has NEVER given me any gift (large, small or even homemade)in five years (birthday's included) and has only once or twice given a gift to BF. BF has, of course, agonized over what SD15 might like for Christmas since he really doesn't know what she is into due to the 8 month gap since we have really had a visit with her.

Past years have been a disater. One year BM called x-mas eve and said she was changing the plan and we could have SD from 11pm to 6am the next morning (Basically she could sleep at our house and then needed to be at BM's in time for the run down the stairs to see the tree with presents moment). Then there was the year, I decided to teach SD to ski for x-mas (purchased season pass, ski clothes and gear) only to have her lose the pass (that I had insited stay at our house) because she wanted to show her friends and then reported to BM that we were abusive when we got upset with her for sneaking the pass home.

So the last few christmases have not been pleasant with either BM or SD. SD's behavior over the last year has not endeared me to her either (failing classes, punishing BF for trying to prevent her flunking out of school). I'm not looking forward to Christmas. I'm sure that the best laid plans will be thrown over. The dread and stomach knots have set in and I'm even certain if the dread and knots are warranted yet!

If I could ask Santa for one thing, it would be a Christmas without drama and quite possibly without SD and BM!