Greetings lovely Steptalkers,

This season I have just not had any Christmas Spirit and havent decor-ated still. 

I caught a nasty cold Friday, my Dad went the emergency room Saturday, and now my brother decided to vacation in our lovely seaside resort exactly 15-27.

Things between us are strained. He simply has no use for me and doesnt really enjoy talking with me at all. No arguments have been had. Hes somewhat like that with my parents and it goes back a really long way. Nothing to do with me, just lots of bad things were said to my parents along the years.

So him being here is stressful for my parents. When my parents get stressed, they tend to lash out at me. 

My Dad, hes in his early 70's, and has multiple issues that I need to research: Kidney issues stemming from enlarged prostate (? did I say that right?) diabetes, high blood pressure...

Meanwhile in stepland, no word from the Skids. Saw something on social media about Feral Forger SD25 needing to find a new apartment. This time of year, pretty much each year, she pokes her head out and asks for money or help somehow. Last June she called me a wh@re after her father didnt have cash for her to pay a phone bill. He was a bit mad about that. But the holidays tend to bring out the nostalgia and generosity he might have. 

So - please friends, keep Dad and myself in your thoughts, hopes, prayers and light.