Here we are we have hit hard times. We been on this hard time since we got married. It makes me wonder the hell I have went through after marrying him is even worth it. It seems I lost more shit then gaining.

Anyway my husband decides to bitch today. He is alllll upset because he is having a hard time on how to fit in the idea of buying big items for his little girls for Christmas!

Unfotunately: He is working and I am not. It has been like this since 2011 till now about a year since I have not had a job.

The same happen back in 2008 when he was not working and I was for a whole year it was like that. He could get a panny anny job to fill in the holes when we needed it bad but that is about it. We had a business that was failing that I wanted to close and he would not let go back then.

Now he is bitching because he does not know how he is going to buy food, gas , pay the bills, and by the girls high end presants.

I need to learn to turn off the lights he says...... Okay that is fine but what pisses me off is he leaves the TV on and he want to run the AC full force when it is hot, and heater when it is cold and he is bitching at me about the lights? Lights that we cover the house with those money saving light bulbs that burns out in about 7yrs.

I think it is sooooooooooooooooooo funny he is bitching about this shit when I was working at a big box store at $7.35 hr, paying the electric bill at home and I had to turn around and give up my spending money to pay his SHOP electric bill on top of that. barely buying food and had to feed his two little rats when they came Yet he is making double what I made back then now. and he is bitching about shit!!!

Bitches about that I don't immidately throw away trash like little seasoning packets when I open them to cook with.. I couldn't help myself I had to hit him back with I am amazed you bitch as much as you do considering when I first met you you had all kind of candy bar wraper and trash all under your bed. I love the exuse he gave. He didn't pick them up because his back was hurting. He uses that excuse alot and crutches on it. It seems funny to me his back doesn't hurt him when he want to work on his bike, or work on wood work.

He talks about fixing the place up so his daughter will have a place to work with such and such if she even goes to college for that and she does not even live with us. I don't think anything should be fixed up for her. The place is not going to be hers sorry. It is basicly my inhertance money that purchase our first home when it sells to purchase land his daughter is not going to inherit it. He came from poor he will leave his daughters with other things but there is no easy stake on what I put into it. If so I will tie it up in court till it is lost!