AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok feel a bit better... I so want to bitch slap DH and go to a place where I can be alone for a few days, no work, no kids (step or bio), AND NO DH!!! I am tired of driving people around, making all DH's appointments & reminding him of them, cooking and being told that I need to add more recipes to my repertoire, constantly being nagged about why they can't watch TV, and the list goes on...

I want to hide, for at least an hour! I wish I could get home and be able to rest, but I can't! I know this is the life of a mom and a wife, but I didn't sign up to be everyone's personal assistant or punching bag. I hardly get a thank you, which is aggravating me as of recently.

Today, I had to take SD to her regular biweekly therapy appointment, which I scheduled. I am the only one that leaves work early to take the kids to any appointment I may have scheduled. I guess I am so upset of all these scheduling because it is all at DH's "request". "We" need to help SD with any issue she may have because of her crappy mother's decisions but I am the only that has to do all the leg work, my legs are TIRED!! "We" need to find a lawyer to fight for custody, can you make calls find one?" After I found the lawyer, DH will call me and tell me "I need an appointment with the lawyer, call and set an appointment".. no please or thank you!! "Lawyer said SD needs to see the therapist, can you call around to look for one, ohh and make sure they are in network!!" "SD needs to see a dentist, can you set an appointment for her!" "SD needs to be enrolled with BS's pediatrician, can you go get the paperwork and set an appointment!?" "SD will be going to see her other siblings, you'll need to drive 1 hr away to drop her off, so you may want to sleep early to wake early because I spoke to her sdad and he can only picke her up int he morning at XX:XX time!" "ohh did I forget to tell you, you need to cancel SD's med appointment because you need to take her to ____ appointment!"

All this and not ONE please!! I finally got tired the other day and gave him the silent treatment, I was afraid if I spoke I would say something I would later regret. He finally asked "what is wrong with you?" with an *I guess I'll ask what is wrong* attitude. I, like most of us have, said nothing... HE ACTUALLY LEFT IT THERE... LMAO!! I laugh because there is nothing else I can do, except for crying but I can't bring myself to cry at this time, I am too upset. Finally he asked again and I told him, very calmly I must add which I was very surprised about I thought I was going to go on a screaming rampage, that he has failed to say please and/or thank you for all the things he requests me to do for him and HIS kid! At first he was upset that I was upset, but quickly calmed down when I told him that if he were to give me attitude I was going to back off, which meant that HE was going to have to drive HIS kid to all her appointments. He has been better, he drives her to school in the mornings now and gets the kids breakfast in the mornings; he even cooked dinner tonight!!!! YAY!!

But I am still very upset about today I took SD to her therapy appointment and guess who got an a$$ chewing because someone hasn't signed paperwork giving me authorization to take her to a pediatrician. AND guess who was lectured on how important it is to make sure she is allowed to speak to her "mother" and I have to figure out a way to get her to see BM. WHY me??

AAAAAHHHHHHH!!! ok, I am done... I feel much better now!