ugh! Dh had a fairly good week last week-he had restarted his meds and I saw some improvements quite quickly. However, its back to the damn shed this weekend. He literally spent all of saturday, all of sat night, all of sunday, and all of sunday night in there. Yep, he hasnt gotten any real sleep since fri nite. He takes his meds at night and he's not taken those in two nights either. My guess is he is home right now crashed. So frustrated. He asked me several times to come down there with him. Like what am I going to do in the cramped shed with your 5 million computer parts? He does come out and talk to me occassionally. So I guess this is an improvement of a couple of months ago when he'd lock himself in there. He leaves the door open most of the time. He keeps an eye on the kids in the yard-so I guess that si something-but nowhere near what I need in terms of a relationship. So yeah, a bad weekend for him.

SS14 has also been freaking atrocious. I want to snap his head off. He mouths off to me constantly. He constantly defies everything I ask him to do. Is never compliant about even small stuff that I know does not really matter to him. His latest this weekend was to run me and my kids down so when I started talking to my kids about it I found out all sorts of other nonsense. MY mil called and invited dh (or us the whole family i suppose) to a cookout that her sister was having on father's day. I believe dh mentioned it in passing on Saturday. I never even said anything in response. On Sunday dh (has been in shed all night and continues to be out there) says nothing about going over there and I proceed with my every sunday plan of eating lunch with my parents-dh makes no move to get ready and go so I assume he isnt going. I say something to him and he confirms-says hes going to go to inlaws. I say fine. And am really fine with that. I dont care-it means ss will go with him and I dont have to look at him.

Well, evidently as we are talking ss is upstairs asking MY kids if they are going to inlaws? They knew nothing about it and said no. So then ss proceeds to tell dd10 that "mamaw" doesnt want her over there anyway-this is her bio grandma as well by the way. Then he tells the kids that "since your mom doesnt want to go you all dont want to go"-WTF? I never said I did or didnt want to go and I certainly didnt discuss it with ss. Come to find out , dh discussed it with ss, telling him that it would probably just be the two of them going and why. Dh didnt see a problem with this as he said, "it's true, right-you didnt want to go". So me and my kids are sort of processing some of this in the car on the way to my parents-the things ss had said to them-and my son then pipes up and said that ss told him that "mamaw" said she hated ds13 because he asked for 50.00 for his bday back when he was 9 and when she said she didnt have it-he said some smart comment like, "Give it ot me anyway". This actually happened-my ds got reprimanded for it in front of "mamaw" and after as well and it was 4 freaking years ago. The thing is ss14 was not present and in fact lived with his bm elsewhere and was not even visiting with any of us or mamaw. So she CHOSE to share this info with him at some later date and discuss how she felt about MY ds. Then my dd10 pipes up and tells me that a few weeks ago-ss14 told her that I hate all of my dh's family and that is why dh never sees them. Again, WTF? I dont really hate anyone (despite my title)-I have never in my life told anyone that I hate ANY of my inlaws even after I'm 99.9 per cent certain that my sil and bil have been stealing from us and I've certainly never (except perhaps in vent here) told anyone that I hate my mil or fil. And certainly I have never kept my dh from visiting them-EVER. He has his own lack of interest in seeing them and his own good reasons. So why the hell is this kid blaming me? I confronted ss on both of these things and he admitted what he said to my ds and told me that mamaw had told him that. The other he tried denying that he said, but admitted to saying something similar, that didnt make him look so bad.

My dh is not understanding why I am so pissy. These inlaws of mine I've known for 12 years. Initially we asked them over for dinners, cookouts, holidays, birthdays-you know tried to involve them in our daily lives. They came a few times here or there but consistently sent out the message that they were not real interested. The invitations were never reciprocated. We were not invited over to any of my inlaws house for supper or what not. On T-giving and the 4th of july we did go to my dh's aunts house-but that is not hosted or given by any of dh's immediate family. I have tried with these nutjobs to have a relationship and encourage a relationship between them and the kids. And they just suck miserably. And to have ss try to hurt MY kids about their lack of relationship and to have him try to blame that on me just freaking pisses me off-because I've spent years holding my tongue and not saying how sucky they are to anyone (except perhaps you fine folks here)

To add icing to the cake-sunday morning dh was talking to ss about how he stayed there a week while we went on vaca and come to find out-ss PAID my fil 40.00 to take him to the movies. His last 40.00 he had from his bday money-he paid this asshole to buy him a 6.00 movie ticket and put gas in his truck and buy him a movie ticket. My ss something about how fil needed it to give to sil and bil. WTF?

I dont even know if I am making sense-I am not even entirely sure what I am pissy about-that's why I just feel like I hate everyone right about now.