Summer vacation starts in three short weeks and that means SD6 is going to be here soon.
Don't get me wrong I love that kid wholeheartedly, but... When she is here it is a perpetual reminder of the bio-biatch, Who will definitely call her on Skype every other night, Forcing me to have to see her fat ugly face all of the time.

More knots in my stomach because I know that DH is going to start getting all giddy and happy... Which shouldn't upset me because I know he does not get to see his daughter enough and I would be happy too if I were him but I find it insulting that he can not work up that much enthusiasm for me and the children we have here on a regular basis. I resent that we have to plan any special outings or trips around SD6 being present, and I resent that I feel that there is still some favouritism towards SD6 that BD6 has to suffer through. I also resent all of the extra money I know I will spend making it up to BD6 afterward out of guilt.

I love SD6 and none of this is her fault, but a dark and selfish part of me wishes that we could fast forward through the month and a half we have her... Or that DH would have a personality adjustment and would stay the same guy that i know and love through the rest of the year during the summer vacation.

I have this horrible feeling that this year will worse since SD6 has moved so far away and DH isn't getting to see her as much anymore...

But I will remain hopeful until I am proven wrong... And then I will come on here and tell you all about it!