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This must be how a normal life feels...

katielee's picture

No chest pain

My neck and shoulders don't ache

I don't feel panicky or short of breath

My soul feels light

SD13 is gone to her mothers and won't be back until next Tuesday.

It's been so long since I felt normal I had forgotten what it feels like.

It's getting harder and harder to avoid the real question... is it really all worth it? Is HE worth it?

I honestly don't know anymore:(

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IslandGal's picture

hmmmmm sounds like you may need to take time off to do some meditation...contemplate your navel and really..really think about this.

Make a list of pro's and con's..that may help you..

...and .. I totally get what you mean about feeling normal! I used to hate that dreaded, heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach when I knew drama was coming in the shape of BM and/or SD. It took a while to get used to feeling normal..I also used to get the shakes badly. When they stopped their shit, I started to relax.. then about a year later..BM calls...and whaddya know..I started shaking..my neck got tense and I had a massive headache..we seriously should be able to sue these bithces for the toxic crap they rain down on us!