Hi ST Community,

It's been a while...

My last blogs outlined my date of departure from my partner. June 1, 2015. Things had changed for the better at the beginning of 2015 - however (as anticipated) declined shortly after into a situation worse than before.

I am PROUD to say I am STILL ON TASK - I am one month behind schedule. July 1st I am leaving my spouse. This is not an ordinary situation.... to bring you up to speed without perusing past blogs: I moved halfway across Canada to a small community of 1000 people to be with DH. In order to leave him, I have to reverse the process.

Step one:
I resigned from my job. I had to do this first, it is the only way I knew I wouldn't be able to "take it back." Gave two weeks notice. Last day of employment is June 30, 2015.

Step two:
Break news to DH. Asked him to stay with his parents for the 2 weeks while I packed my belongings and prepared to move across the country (again). SELL EVERYTHING I OWN - clothing, personal effects, furniture.

Step three:
Rally support - line up couches, spare bedrooms, relatives, friends, family, ANYONE who will support and encourage me. Let them know my decision and ask for help.

Step four:
Take a beating from all of DH's friends via text/phone/social media. Endure "gold digging" remarks, being told they never liked me to begin with........ that's nice guys.

Step five:
Grieve. Cry, a lot. Let go of the image that I had of my future, give way to accept that I have no job - no permanent residence - no belongings. Try not to feel like a fucking failure.

So guys, I am doing this. It's terrifying and I have no safety net. I have $5000 in savings - enough for a moving truck, fuel, and maybe a month of job hunting leniency. Boston Pizza, gimme a serving job, pronto. Any words of encouragement would be great. And thanks again, always, for all of you who have helped me see the clarity in my life and choose my own happiness.