If anyone has read my other blogs you will know I have decided to leave. I am looking for a new place to live. Over the weekend I told the sskids that their father wanted them to go with their grandmother to church if his sister gave her a ride. If she was taking the bus do not go with her. I explained this to them. My second to oldest ss called and was asking if she was going to church. I said no ss ask her if she is getting a ride. My oldest ss said to me WOW You really want us out of here. I was soo upset by that comment I had to leave the room. Then the oldest ss punished himself (he sent himself to his room). The younger boys asked me how long does he have to be in his room? I told them I didnt sent him there. So he punshes himself and then tells people I did it. The boys go to church because I thought grandma had a ride I left the room when they were on the phone so I was not sure. I found out yesterday they all took the bus! I guest that is my fault for not double checking but I was really clear about the bus and I was upset and left the room. No wonder my exSO thinks I pushed them out. The oldest ss also told my exSO's family that I wanted them to take them because I had no money to take them?? What does money have to do with anything. All this new information I found out yesterday. My ex got home yesterday and I was heated and I explained this stuff to him. He still doesnt think its big deal. If you let him get away with the manipulative behavior who is to say he wont do it about more serious allegations. WHat if he tells BM I abused him? Child services comes and I am taken away what them?? My ex said do you really think that I would let that happen?? Well first of all you would be able to stop that because they would have to prove him wrong and I would be arrested. Second of all you just did let it happen!!! He lied and got away with it. I cannot believe I am being painted as the evil step mom. I do everything for these kids. How is this my life??