So last night I was getting ready to go to bed and asked DH if he made arrangements for a sitter today... He says no of course--- so here we are last night trying to make arrangements at 10pm for 6:30 am today--- great right?!

So BM is the one arranging all of the family-based and informs us last night that 2 weeks ago someone came to her house to do the intake- once again the lack of communication is really pissing me off.... Last week I caused a blow-up in our house because of a sitter situation again and asking when the intake was going to be done so that we can get him back to daycare rather than driving 20-40 miles out of our way each day to ensure there is a sitter...(since he has been kicked out of daycare due to behavior)...

If she would just keep us informed I think things would be a lot better- I had the day off and offered to take SS to an intake and was told no- we found out that BM was scheduling one- now this pisses me off because it would be nice to know so that we could all go (#1 because it affects us all and he does, in fact act differently with us than he does w/ BM and #2 because I have a sped degree and neither BM or DH seem to understand any of the talk that goes on- yet I'm asked to stay at home because I ask questions and give my input on the situation since I spend a majority of the time w/ SS when we have him) and the second thing that really pisses me off is that the walk in intakes- the doc is available and will do an eval- so mom has the intake done but no eval- wtf---- I could have had all of this settled 2 damn weeks ago and be saving us all of this running around and fighting back and forth if only people in SS's life cared as much as I care to get shit done for him...

I'm looking to leave one of my jobs now because I can't keep doing these late night and early mornings w/ SS and running a county away when we have a perfectly fine daycare 2 miles from our house that won't accept him back until he is either on meds or has a TSS/BSS because he had a blow-up and flipped tables and chairs-

I really just wish that SS would be old enough for school and we can go back to court and fight for more- one of my friend's and her fiance just got his daughter all but 4 days a month visitations- (BM will get her every other weekend and that is it- which she has been refusing her weekends since the hearing- so they are in the process now of trying to go back to get the 4 days since BM doesn't want anything to do with her daughter.) So I keep praying the same will happen for us...

I'm just sick of knowing that there is something that needs done for SS and I have the time and resources to make it happen and get SS the help he needs, :sick: but BM is dragging her feet because she knows it inconviences us... Love my boys dearly... but this is getting really old really fast... :sick: