This is my first time doing this... my first time blogging, and my first time being in this situation. I am 23 years old. I grew up believing in fairy-tales and romance. My parents are still together, so are my grandparents who act as my second parents. I have 2 wonderful little sisters whom I would anything for. One is 20 and the other is 15. Needless to say, I have an extremely close family.

I met this charming guy summer before my senior year of college. We became good friends and started dating shortly after. It wasn't until after our first date I found out he had a son who wasn't even one at the time. Now, if I would have known this before hand, I probably would have never gotten into the relationship. I was 21, about to graduate college and had the whole world ahead of me. I was planning on moving back to California right after I graduated. I didn't want a relationship, all I wanted was a career in Cali. Fate had different plans. It turns out, I fell for the guy. I fell real hard. He's now my best friend in the world and I couldn't imagine myself with anyone else in the world.

I had no idea what I was in for when I began this relationship. BM, BD and myself all agreed that I shouldn't meet the baby until we knew that we were serious about our relationship. Well, on December 31, 2008 I met the little boy who stole my heart within seconds. He is the smartest, most handsome little boy that anyone has ever set eyes on. Not only that, he's sarcastic and funny and manipulative and will get whatever he wants and he is only two. He's got a lot of his daddy in him.

My future SS (FSS) and I have created such a strong bond. The three of us (BD, FSS and I) have created such a loving home that my FSS is happy to come home to. We love, and cuddle and play and wrestle, and run, and jump, and hide, and cuddle and tickle... the list goes on. We really just have a blast. And did I mention we are getting a Golden Retriever puppy in 10 days! We think his name is Rufus.

Now... if I were to stop typing now, I would leave you all thinking we are in a perfect situation, but that is so far from the truth. Because I am going through a little piece of hell right now along with all this bliss. It's what I like to call "Bittersweet Euphoria". Oxymoron ... I know. That's the point.

I failed to mention anything about the BM. This is because my life would be so much less stressful without her. The first time I met her I told her that I will respect her as the BM and not overstep my boundaries. This was followed by her giving me death threats and telling me that if she knew where I lived, I would be dead by now. She proceeded to tell me that she has to step away from knives when she was around the BD so she wouldn't stab him. Talk about starting off the wrong foot!

Anyway, now it is so much worse than I ever could have imagined. A description of hell couldn't have prepared me for what she has put us through. From death threats, to half naked pictures, from trying to rape the BD, to trying to have him arrested, from teaching my FSS bad things about me, to telling my neighbors bad things about me. I am just fed up with her and don't know how to deal with her. I am trying the best I can and that's all I can do.

I can't talk to anyone about this situation because they will either end up hating my fiance or get tired of hearing negative things. I have no on to talk to and I think this website will be a great release for all of my stress.