Things have been crazy. My baby daughter loves to cry like a kitten and smile when she is taking a poopy. DH is loving it and is pushing for me to get pregnant again within a few months. SD14 moved back with BM after a tearful and dramatic “nobody cares about me" exit but she comes over every day after school to play with her sister. I put a nanny cam in the nursery and living room just for insurance. DH talked to her about how she knew a baby needs attention but he is trying to spend more time with her. When she is not rolling her eyes at me or stomping past me there are rare moments when she asks if I'm feeling ok and actually hands me the remote. My dad really didn't talk to me about cheating on my mom. He didn't say much of anything he played with his granddaughter, wrote me a check for ten thousand dollars and told me he was sorry. With a kiss on the forehead he was gone. I took my mom out shopping and she told me their marriage had been dead for a while. We talked and we cried.

My daughter is showing early signs of being a daddy’s girl. She cries when I'm around her but just for my milk. As soon as DH picks her up or touches her she is quite. At night it takes me about 30 minutes to get her to calm down it takes DH 30 seconds. My body is different, my taste are different and my whole life has changed in a matter of months. But it’s worth it. I really appreciate Dawn for creating this website. I really appreciate you guys jumping on this roller coaster with me so I won’t have to ride alone. Kisses. I'm taking my mom and grandmother to the spa while DH and my grandmother's BF are on baby duty.