Just need to put this out in words so that i can call on it later.

Lately I have thought that SD has been being a bit more civil and trying to at least acknowledge me. And it felt good to think maybe we are moving forward. However I have this nagging thought that the other shoe will drop and we will be right back where we started - me being invisible to SD. The past month or so everything has been about SD, her sports, her schedule, her new contacts, her this, her that.....IT'S BEEN ENTIRELY ABOUT HER. And she thrives under that constant attention. She truely has an only child personality, and being raised in a child-centered home by BM I am seeing more and more the affect it has on her.

For example, she friended me on Facebook which really surprised me but I accepted (i'm really not that into the whole social site thing). She tagged herself in a couple of our vacation pics, all of her alone, none as a family. No comments about it being a good time or such, just look at me.

So my prediction is that as soon as life goes back to normal again and she is no longer the center of everyone's attention that her attitude toward me will once again rear it's head. I seem to be the one that takes the full blame for her not being everyone's everything.

If I could turn on the fake sweet voice and make my life revolve around her I think she would love me. But that's not something I can realistically do, nor do I have any desire to take part in raising a child in that manner.

This weekend will test my prediction.