I went to shelter 2 weeks ago.. Inner Faith.. for Family Crisis...
I didn't bring my daughter there.. because, i dont know what it look like and i dont think its safe for her. she stayed with her dad. and my unborn baby with me lol

anyways, its very nice. and therefore hubby refuses to let me have her w me at shelter.. for few days.

reasonw hy i went there.. i had a blow out w him and about step daughter gets into my biggest nerve.. how it started?

I was talking to hubby about something. and she told him that i want to kill her.. I said what the fuck! yes i did say what the fuck. because im pissed.. and I never said it and he plans to call the police. i said excuse me you believe that child i said i will kill you? i said ZIP IT means shut up.. zipper in your mouth.. and that how i started to pack up and went there. and i am sick of her fucking lies..

and he asked me to come home.. I said why should I? beacuse your daughter miriam the one who lied the shit. so i am not coming back til she apology. she didnt. so i dont give a shit about her. and he wanted us to go to counseling. so i am booking a counseling tues. if he didnt show up im not going to keep on going to counseling with him.

main problem is his evil demon daughter who lied.. all the time. no respect.. and rude.. how many times do i have to say over and over? no need to.

we plan to have seperation paper.. for a while but i guess i went back to the house to soon? lol i stayed there for 3 days. and come back.. he said he loves me so much and wanted me to work with his daughter.. excuse me why should I/ and she lied to you and trying to get me in jail that i never said.

and im 6 months now.. and i am so stressed out.. and i don tknow what i should do. and I cant leave him.. should I?

i have no place to live.. no friends, or family.. which i asked them if i can move w them. and they said no its not my problem and i told them oh wow you declined me and my daughters? okay.. that day i cut them off for good.. they declined me as thier family so i skip them. wont let my kids see them at all.

and friends no where.. guess inner faith is the only way.. to stay.. but my kids???!!!! hubby wont let me have them.... im on ssd government.. and no one going to help me at all. so depressing.

I guess have to talk to counseling this tues. and see what she/he says.

im getting more and more depress.. the way she does it and she refuses to listen to me. respect me and all that shit.

only thing i can say is.. talk to the counselor and see what is her opinion is. and i get my opinions as well.. and see it works. ugh.. went to counselig couple months ago. and she betrayed us.. made us to pay 300 bucks that.. medicaid didn not cover and told me that at the beginning that they pay in full.. so we dont have to worry about it. and no so we fought and finally i dont pay 1 cent.. so finally found 1.. church thing. and see how it goes.

daughter age 2, due this april 2011