I JUST wrote a very long blog about my life, as it is, right now. It reminded me of something else! LOL

The last time I talked to my therapist, she waited until there were about fifteen minutes left of the session and said "AND YOU WANT TO ADOPT THESE KIDS?" Part of me wants to laugh at that, but....

Yes, I want to adopt them! I haven't gotten up the funds to hire a new attorney, yet, but I want to adopt these kids very very much.

These are my kids, in every way, shape and form, except for law and biology. Legally, I am their guardian, not mom. Biologically, well.. lots of people adopt.. I just don't have that paperwork yet. (But I am very satisfied with the paperwork I do have!)

Sd15 has started telling her dad "send me back to foster care, if you don't want me!" and when she says that, it breaks my heart. I want her very very much, but I want her to fallow the rules, to!

She has also asked SEVERAL times for us ume thing.

SD12 has started complaining, lately, that I spend too much time on the internet. Truth is, I don't get a real physical break from the girls, so the internet, and zoning out have to do. Truth is, she has been a terror, lately, and I don't really want to be lovey dovey with her, right now. Truth is, she wants me off the internet, so I will be changing Tv, so she can watch that instead of doing her work! LOL

So, yeah. I may not always ENJOY my time with SDs, but I treasure it. I've fought long and hard to get where we are now, and i am going to keep fighting. There is no going back to yesterday, and there is no sitting idle, waiting to loose ground!