DH used my computer and steptalk was up. He asked me if I was blogging on this site. I said yes, and that it was like a journal. I told him he could read it, but he would not like what he saw. He said he didn't want to read it. I think he's going to anyway. It makes me want to make up all kinds of stuff just to me with his mind. My sister did that to our stepmom when we were kids. Our stepmom was abusive, cruel and should have been put in prison for the violence and torture she used on us. So my sister decided to find out if stepmom was going through our things when we were at school. She hid a letter she made up to a friend saying she was pregnant and didn't know what to do! Our step mom found it (and it was hidden VERY well). Stepmom pulled it out in front of our dad to get my sister in trouble after repeatedly saying she did not search our rooms and that we were just trying to make her look bad to our dad. Man, was she busted!

I wish I had that gene to play tricks on my husband. Create that I'm having an affair. That I am going to fleece him in the divorce and then go abroad to live with my lover! Wouldn't that be hilarious? But I am not mean in any way. I love my husband. Regardless of his poor choices. He finally said that all we do when he comes over is watch TV. You think? You think I wanna have fun? Should I throw a party? I AM SO UNHAPPY!

The first appt made was for DH, not SD. He is going to get essentially a "parenting coach. This is yet another way to avoid having to actually confront SD and force her to go to counseling. Everything but the the thing the girl needs most. I am somewhat encouraged because at least he can figure out how to parent his violent child. It took him a year to say no without fearing the fallout. I hope he gets further than that this time. I will not be there, so I don't know. This is his personal time to figure out how he wants to do this. I did my time in hell. And I'm not going back until he is my champion and protector!

So, read all you want DH. I am sure you will LOVE what my peers have to say about our situation.