Well, I shouldn't be surprised, should I?

Saw this one coming..

This weekend we didn't have any kids and were supposed to go out to dinner Saturday night.. I looked at the finances and made the decision that going to my favorite place was not the best idea as it would cost about $130 - and at Christmas with funds so tight, we can just go somewhere less expensive..

So DH and I decided to go to the mall Saturday and Christmas shop as well.. I already knew he waited until Thursday to make the dinner reservations (that we canceled) so I asked him if he had shopped for my bday yet. I already knew the answer was no - which was disappointing, but typical of him because he is a procrastinator...

While at the mall, I said "why don't I just pick out my gifts now" because I knew this was the ONLY time we had to do this. We had kids Sunday, work on Monday and sports every night.. my birthday is today.

DH said no to this idea. And so we shopped for everyone else and I didn't even look at things for me. Which is fine because being a December baby, you kind of just learn that your free time around your birthday isn't about you..

Then on Sunday I say to DH - when are we going to try to celebrate things? I know that the skids don't care, but we have my daughter and she does - and uhmmmmmmm.. Dh should too, right?

Well.. I guess not. He has no clue. Sk15 had bball games 3 nights and my daughter is at her dads for a couple hours 2 nights and she has sports 2 nights as well..

Bottom line - there is no time. Sure, had he actually LOOKED at the schedule last week, he would have known this.. but as usual, he didn't plan a damn thing.

So, Sunday night he tells my daughter he will take her shopping right after school for mommmy... then reneges on it because he has to take sk15 to a bball game. He then promises her that after the game he will take her - at 6pm.

So, we get homework done and eat dinner.. 6pm comes and goes. At 7pm, Dh calls me and tells me "the game ran over and he and sk15 just picked me up something since they were by the mall".. I am pissed!

I say to him "tell her" and hand my daughter the phone. She is extremely disappointed and cries when she hangs up with him. I tell her not to worry - her and I will go do something after school tomorrow.. she gets it - that DH had all last week to plan and do something and his last minute way of things screwed her over.

So, this morning.. my alarm goes off and I get up - all I hear is a half assed "happy bday" from DH as I am getting in the shower. Honestly, I don't care. I get it. My bday is a huge inconvenience and no one wants to be bothered with it.

I get ready.. he tries to bait me into a fight by asking "what's wrong" and "why are you in a bad mood".. I tell him "nice try, but I'm not biting." Fuck him.

Then, to ice the proverbial cake.. I get a half assed "happy birthday" form sk15 - first of all, you could tell DH told him to say it because it was said in a crappy robotic tone as he was walking into his bedroom. Then, I walk by sk12 several times and he says absolutely nothing.. I get only a smirk.

Not than any of the skid crap hurts me.. it just is what it is. But in addition to DH's attitude, it's like "seriously wtf?"..

So, I sent Dh an email and told him - take back your obligation gifts you got last night. I don't want them. Also, we aren't celebrating anything tonight. My daughter and I are going to go shopping after work as she wants to pick out a card and a gift for me - this means something to her.

Its kinda funny... how I feel nothing at all. Just numb.