This has been absolutely the worst year of my entire life....

My SS13 referred to me as "mom" during a conversation over the phone with the late wife's mother. A month later we recieved a lawsuit requesting partial custody/visitation. WTF, this lady is a bitch, and you know who you are. I'm not spiteful, but I am pissed. At least someoone is here taking care of her children, someone that loves them very much. The sorry BM decided that she just couldn't handle it anymore after bringing these 3 boys into the world. So, in an effort to play out her single dreams, she had an affair... couldln't handle the consequences from that after she lost her children, so she killed herself after a failed attempt. I'm angry... I'm angry that they view their mother as this "angel", when SHE neglected them while their father was serving overseas on 3 different occasions. They have suffered tremendously from this neglect...not only emotionally, but physically as well. And now my DH and I are suffering also as we try to clean up the mess she left behind. These kids are a wreck and have definitely tested my faith, but I refuse to believe that there is anything other than God that brought them into my life. Just needed to vent. It's been a CRAPPY year!!!!!