*BORING POETRY ALERT*

Writing is one of the things I do often as a form of therapy. Sometimes it's an angry letter, sometimes it's just random statements, and sometimes it's poems. Occaisionally the angry letters make it to their recipients but usually I just throw them away. I have never shown anyone the poems though, their not exactly Emily Dickenson quality LOL...However, recently I have written a couple inspired by the trouble I'm having in the step department and some by my BM issues so I thought I'd share a few here. And it helps that none of you know me so if they suck hard I won't be as embarrassed There's a couple off topic ones that are supposed to be funny so I'm going to post those too.

Each one has it's own inspiration and a little story behind it so I'm going to post them seperately and hope that isn't too annoying

This one is called Sanctuary Lost and it's inspired by DH's habit of bringing up SD at inapropriate times. When we are talking about our marital issues he often feels the need to say "You and my daughter are the most important people in my life", or "Nothings more important to me than being a good husband and father", or some such statement that brings attention to his kid in the middle of a discussion we are having about "US". Another inappropriate time is when way to often he will say one of the same things above or just randomly bring up something about SD while we are laying together after sex. Who the f**k wants to talk about kids then...especial ones that aren't yours? Just things like this. Seems like he has forced this kid into every nook of my life. Anyway, here it is:

Constant reminder
of wounds too deep.
Tainting my world.
Invading my sleep.

Even when not,
it's alwas around.
Fills me with dread,
has my heart bound.

You invited it in
to our intimate lair.
Seeped in my haven.
It shouldn't be there.

You bring it where
it has no place.
No peace left within
our flesh's embrace.

Holding you closely
in our afterglow.
You welcome it in.
My resentment grows.

My sanctuary
I now have lost.
With thoughtless words
it's all been tossed.

My one place to hide
with no dark to fear.
My darkest demons
you summon here.

You barely notice
my expanding rage.
An untamed beast
in a broken cage.

Nothing's just ours.
This truth so foul.
What's left without bliss?
What's left for me now?