Due to personal issues within my family that were completely devastating and unexpected...we did not get to move. We had to give up our apartment to rent out. Ugh. Of course. But anyway...

I ended up moving out for about 3 months...spent some time off and on with the girls on the weekends and boyfriend. No longer calling him fiance...Dh...none of that. Whatever. As I've mentioned - we've been together almost 5 years now...I'm comfortable. So about 3 weeks ago I started going back and forth between his house and mine.

I mentioned a few months ago his parents decided to quit paying their bills to the house when they found out we were moving...to trap him. Make him broke and pay off the bills...after he paid for them...(we're not here for free already) they then sold their only vehicle. Of course he is not going to leave them here with no vehicle since his brothers aren't anywhere near us...he feels obligated. Ridiculous. - After they sold their car...(stashed their money from the damn car and bought dumb sh*t) making themselves broke again...our new explorer blew up. It's a $2000 job to fix so we only have my beater car right now. Which his parents are now using as well...not putting any gas in it and putting miles on it. We are supposed to get the explorer back within the next few months.

The girls have been really really good (knock on wood). We've been having really good weekends and my boyfriend and I have been working together really well (knock again) to keep things stable. He's on my side - I'm on his. And this is working. And the kids see it and they know not to push it. Their awesome mother has left her baby daddy AGAIN...somehow just got herself a house and another NEW boyfriend that is going to the kids events and doc appointments already? Seriously? But...I'm medicated now...and these kids are already mentally screwed up from her craziness and moving them 12 times...if we ever win the damn lottery they are coming to live with us after we build a house...(hey, a girl can dream right?)

Boyfriend's sister in laws are both preggers....due any second now...literally...both of them. One who is like my big sister has asked me to participate in her birthing...uh. Her sisters and mom all live in Florida. This is only happening if she's yelling for me. hahaha. And her hubby won't be happy but well - he was raised by the same mother my man was raised by so he's lacking in support and millions of other qualities their mother and father did not possess.

I'll keep posting to get my vents out. My mind is blank. I have been taking Celexa which has taken a huge edge off. It's like I ignore everything and I have no fear when it comes to telling his mother she is insane. And I just know she is is the lowest of the low and I am getting my confidence back. Who is she? I'm better than that. Love it. My next step is new birth control. I quit taking my pills and I am waiting on Mirena - protection for 5 years...perfect. I'm childless and I plan on keeping it that way unless I want to feel crazier. Anyone else have it? I'd like to know any side effects, etc?