The last month has been emotionally draining to say the least. 

4 weeks ago- we fly to KS for nothing- contempt and custody to be heard on July 29th, judge wasn't in the mood to hear anything that day and it didn't matter that we flew there and took time off of work.

3- weeks ago DH meets with the GAL again. DH shows the GAL everything we have since the last time we spoke with him. Including all the social media info we have on BM (one of her friends is mad at her and sent us like 100 screenshots of amazing!) The GAL is disgusted with BM and confirmed that he would be writing a recommendation for a custody flip. I also flew out of KS again, this time with SS19, BS13 and BDstb12 for SIL's wedding. 

2 weeks ago I flew back out to KS again for DH's 20th HS reunion. BM also graduated from the same class, she didn't show- THANK GOD. Our flight home was canceled and then we got rerouted and delayed again. We were up for over 24 hrs straight and had an 11 hr layover in Denver. It was a nightmare!!

Last week we got word from our lawyer that SS14 has been instructed by the GAL to do weekly facetime calls with DH on Tuesday nights at 830pm. Well, that is 9:30 pm our time and DH gets up at 3:45 to be at work before 5. He has a 30-40 commute. We are trying to get the time changed since we had no say in it. We also found out that DH will be gone for most of the month of August. So that just makes things even more awesome. 

3 days ago I sent my bios to California to spend the summer with their dad. Their flight situation was a disaster due to weather, at one point I threatened to hunt down an AA rep at her home if my kids were not on the next flight from their layover and they had to spend the night in Dallas alone at the airport!

 I know they are going to have a blast but I miss them already. I hate that I feel like I can't even express to DH that I miss them. I know how much he wants SS14 in his life and that he should be spending similar time with SS14 as my kids spend with their dad. I feel like I am not allowed to be sad that my kids are gone... Like I would somehow be defending BM's behavior if I miss my children... The difference is  though, my kids go to their dad. It doesn't matter that I miss them. They love their dad and SM and brothers there- all of them love and miss my bio's too! I won't keep my kids from their father.

We fly back to KS in 35ish days for the hearing... We know BM is working and have all of that proof. Based on the calculator in my state with estimated income DH has been overpaying CS for the last year (AT LEAST) by about $100/mo. We are also going to fight the calculations for alimony since she had been able to work this whole time and has never provided income statements just her word that she was on disability and "factored at minimum wage". I hope she is slammed for this. She has been working, that we know of since September, still getting social security disability too... so we will see what happens. 

I don't think it is a good chance, but SS could wind up coming to live with us after this. If that doesn't happen I am about 100% sure that SS will be ordered to spend the rest of the summer with us. Of course DH is leaving 10 days after the hearing... so yay for me? It would only be a total of about 3.5 weeks  before he has to go back for school anyway but I don't want 2 weeks with him without DH. However, if we don't take the time BM will use that as a "See! He doesn't even have time for his son! SS shouldn't go at all!"... Which isn't the case, but DH is military. They are called orders, not suggestions. BM loves all the $$ that DH's career has provided for her but she sure as hell has never supported him or helped with any accommodations for his parenting time.

I don't even know what to think anymore. I know this is rambling especially to those who don't know my back story but Jesus, I needed to type something out.