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Submitted by SummerMomma719 on Sat, 10/12/2013 - 6:28pm

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What may come simple to some, may not to others. As some may know by reading my post I've had a TOUGH time with my feelings and emotions towards sd. So what is still an unknown reason. Anyways, we have had her since Thursday. Which for me is a lot. There is always a break in days when we have her. So you might think it would of been harder yet I find myself quite calm. My anxiety isn't up there I'm in a great moodZ I've been joking around with sd and the 3 of us have been talking and goofing around. I'm not sure how that part has changed. But as for me I've been much MUCH more conscious of when something triggers my frustration or whatever. And just today has been so much different. I'm not antsy to get her back home like usual. I'm usually aggravated the whole time and watching the clock.. But not tonight. I still can't wait til she is home just to have some down time finally but that's about it. This may sound silly to some but again for those who have followed my other post know this is huge for me. And I'm proud of myself and had to share. Doesn't mean I love the kid now lol but Im in a better place hen before.

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Submitted by SummerMomma719 on Mon, 10/14/2013 - 1:54am

I'm so proud of myself* I'm usually typing from my phone and sometimes going a little too quick and don't re read it

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Submitted by emotionaly beat up on Sat, 10/12/2013 - 7:10pm

Great. Your accepting it and that's all you have to do. You don't love her, so what, you might never love her. But as long as you are being accepted by her the most anyone can ask is that you accept her also.

You still can't wait for her to go home you can have some down time. That my friend makes you totally normal. Every parent on the planet by the end of the day can't wait for our kids to go to bed so we can get some down time. I have 4 of the most gorgeous grandsons on the face of the earth. Love to see their smiling faces walking through my door, and yet when they leave I give a silent and exhausted Thank God

All the best.

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Submitted by Anon2009 on Sat, 10/12/2013 - 9:59pm

^^^THIS^^^

Summer, I'm so glad things are going better for you and am proud of you.

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Submitted by Rags on Sun, 10/13/2013 - 5:00am

Good for you. Every parent whether step or bio goes through periods where they want to kill the spawn. (figuratively for the most part).

Every parent also goes through periods when they completely enjoy the spawn.

The key is to not have both parents in the household align on doing the spawn in at the same time. Then the child survives to adulthood and the SOs move on to the blissful stage of empty nesters who can look back and laugh at the years they raised kids.

IMHO of course.