OMG, I had this whole post typed and hit enter and something happened and it DISAPPEARED, WTF?

Here we go again. My skid is 9, autistic, has motor coordination disorder, and a host of other physical/developmental issues that go hand-in-hand with the above-mentioned diagnoses. He lives with us 24\7 as BM is a welfare-living heroin addict and a waste of oxygen and skin.

Last week, skid's outpatient occ therapist send home index cards with practice exercises for skid to start doing DAILY at home. They are nice, laminated index cards with hand written directions on the back for me or DH or teacher, basically any adult to instruct him on how to do them. When I looked at them I immediately thought "are you fucking kidding me, a fetus could do these simple hand movements". So, I reach out to her to basically ask WTF???

She tells me that skid's progress in OT is basically NADA; he struggles with the simplest of tasks and challenged me to do these exercises with skid and to observe certain movements, etc. Of course, I assume i'm EASILY going to win this one, so I heed her advice.

Well, needless to say, she was right Almost FELL THE FUCK OUT OF MY CHAIR watching him struggle to do the simplest of hand movements! It was then that my WORST FUCKING FEAR on this planet set in: THIS KID IS NEVER GOING TO BE SELF SUFFICIENT!!!!!!!!!

Now I wonder, will he ever be able to drive a car, get a job, take care of himself, any of it? Or am I going to be stuck with him in my home forever?

I don't know who to talk to about it, pediatrician, therapists, etc. so here it is for YOU steptalk.....HELP ME!!!!!!!!