Sometimes he backs me up when it comes to his 12 year old daughter (tween) whom I watch while he works. He's getting better at it but then sometimes it goes back to the way it was. It still depresses me that this one time he was standing there with his daughter yelling at me along with her. Everyone has conveniently forgot that ever happened. Recently she acted out very badly and I thought he had my back but when I got him on the phone he started questioning me like I was the kid in trouble and had to explain myself. He was backing me up by the end of the conversation though. When he got home I was able to go for a walk because I really needed that break to cool off. It must of been a mistake because when I got back he wasn't talking to me and stayed outside all the rest of the day. Meanwhile SD is skipping and laughing all around to the point of being sickening. Later I had to come up with rules and wrote them down. I said they have to be followed if I was going to watch her on Monday when he went back to work. He supported me on that despite her tantrum about it. The next day she contacted her mom and had her dad drive her home after he got off of work. My rules will still be here when she gets back. If she comes back he worries.
Last night I dreamed she was yelling at me and he just sat there doing nothing about it. I was incredibly sad because I had to leave since he kept letting her treat me that way. I wanted to find him so we could talk about it but I couldn't locate him. I knew it would be pointless to try and get him to realize that I didn't have to leave if he just wouldn't let her treat me like this.
Another time I dreamed SD was angry and stepped up to me for a confrontation. She was taller than me and I was afraid.
One time I dreamed she had me by the arm and was dragging me down. I looked at her father and he didn't seem to see anything wrong even though I was begging him to help me.
Another one I can remember is SD's dad had finally made a stand to her and she was upset. I wanted to tell him that it's normal for kids to be very upset in the beginning when the parent takes back their authority. I saw his daughter walking on the street before a bridge and her face was all red and she was talking fast but not making any sense. She was that upset at being given boundaries and limits. Then I was walking with my mom on the bridge. Someone else walking by said there was a body found under the bridge. I had to find her dad to tell him but was afraid of how he would react because of the guilt. Strangely he didn't seem to react much at all.
My other dreams I am very angry and hitting her. I never see or recall what the end result in those dreams are.
After I have these dreams they are very hard to shake off in the morning. My feeling from the dreams stay with me most of the day. I feel like they really happened in reality but know they didn't.
I think I'm still tired and better take a nap. Maybe after that I'll be able to do what most normal people do and forget the dreams they had the night before.
Thanks for reading. This is my first post.