Today has been a rough day to say the least. My SS,7, is at that age where he tries to be cool like a big kid, but is still throwing tantrums like a toddler. I am 6 months pregnant and really struggling being around him. I feel like a horrible person for feeling the way I do about him, but I can't help it. On days we have him I end up spending most of my time in my bedroom alone. There are times when he talks that I just cringe and my whole body physically hurts. I feel like there is something wrong with me, this feeling has only gotten worse since I have been pregnant.

I've been married for 8 years, known my husband and SS for 11 years, we have 3 bio kids, and I don't think I can do this step mom thing anymore. The first 9 years were fine. Visitation during summers and every other major holiday. But since fall of 2020 we've (I've) had him full time. My husband is in the army and leaves a lot, he doesn't do much when he's here anyways (I swear he has a gaming addiction) and I'm a stay at home mom. My stepson from the beginning has been very sneaky, manipulative and lies frequently.