So only two of my very good friends are married or engaged ( a few have babies) none are sm. that leaves me in an usual situation. Me and BFF have been friends since we were about 14 (were 30 now). She is the most judgemental person ever. If I have a few drinks and vent about my situation to her she is so judgmental "poor skids etc". I have these kids in my house every week I was only asking for one night off etc stc it's relentless. This woman has never had a serious bf never mind children in the mix so it's hard not to lose my temper and tell her to F off at times. She is also so unsupportive when I told her about my desire to have children. Me and so have been together for sever years.When I get upset and mention this she is so like couldn't imagine you with kids, I'd hate that I'm only 30 and I feel like saying of course you'd hate that you haven't had a serious relationship....

Anyway current predicament. It was BFF birthday 27th of December. We always do cinema and dinner the two of us for years. I text her and ask are we doing the same this year. She replies no she's having a family thing and I'm welcome. Great I say. Were both back home in small town we were raised for a few days over holidays. I call over that day, sit with her mom, give her 150euro worth of Christmas/birthday presents including a pair of 95e boots she wanted (I would not even spend this on myself). I get about 40e in presents back but I genuinely don't care about this - this is not what it's about).included In this was spa day for her hirthday and a girls photo shoot thought this would be fun. Anyway ended up I couldn't go that itchy. Sheis having a big mad night out with all her friends I don't know In the city (I live 45 mins away from city and commute very day to work). I told her two weeks ago I couldn't make it cause I was broke until I get paid next week. She hasbasicay cut me off today when I told her again I couldn't go despite the money I spent on her over Xmas. I genuinely am broke until next week. Maybe I was in the wrong but as my sister and so have pointed out my birthday is exactly 2 weeks after gers (also my 30th - next sat) and we never do anything for mine ever - never ever any year but always a big deal is made about hers. I feel petty writing this it invade a pretty hard time at the moment. Between a very stressful and unthankful job, fertility issues, resentment and two BMs. I just feel like hiding away and cutting the strings from BFF which is sad after 15 years of friendship, dont think she'll ever understand.