Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement.

I have been feeling really fried and super burned out for many different reasons. 

Im turning the corner however and stress levels have gone down. SD16 was with us for two weeks instead of 1 due to SD23 having strep...and it wasnt so bad or it didnt bug me as much. I stayed home mostly. Week before last husband was really sick. He turned an ashen gray and slept a lot, even napped during the day which he never does.

I had a bit of a breakdown last Thursday. At work. Fortunately my boss is very kind and understanding and I managed to pull it together. This past weekend, like the previous, I stayed home and worked on cleaning and clearing projects.

BM Toxic Troll did not enter my mind a single time, except in a few conversations Husband and I had about house-related issues.

All in all things are better with Husband. He and SD16 are doing well, behaving well. Im getting better at disengagement. My attitude is better all around. 

Im very grateful. I have a 3 bedroom home with TWO living rooms - wheras the person I was loathing has a 1 bedroom apartment and can barely afford that. Money is always tight for her and I just got done purchasing my second car that will be my recreational vehicle. Sometimes we need to break down a little so we can see the strength in others. Allow them to help us, as you all have helped me.

It does get better, in the right way, for many of us. Im just so glad that I have steptalk to release that energy and still have hope for brighter and better going forward.