I'm worried about "Jane's" sister. I can tell she misses her and I overheard one side of a phone call between the two. Jane has the tendency to be very rude to her sister by putting her down. I could tell Jane was saying snarky things on the other line by the reactions of younger SD. Jane also has the tendency to make what's she's doing seem awesome and that it's better than what others are doing. Younger SD was talking about the fairy lights I put in her room to make her curtains twinkle. Jane starts bragging about how awesome her room lights are at Grandma's house the ones that I sent her and she didn't even acknowledge or thank me for. I'm bitter, I know. 

I feel bad for taking her sister away. I had siblings as a child but my husband was the only child in his home. He mentioned how lonely it was for him. Now both of his daughters are experiencing the only child-ism and I know it's weighing on everyone involved.

It's hard to follow through on this when everyone is hurting with her away and go through hell when she's here. I often wonder is this the right thing to do? Then the thought of Jane being home causes a flood of emotions, mostly anxiety, to overcome me. 

The other day my husband mentioned perhaps letting her come with us on vacation and the idea of it raised my blood pressure immediately. I just can't imagine a time when she's not an emotional vampire. 

I have doubts. I get anxiety. Before all of this my stress was nearly non-existent.