it's done, i'm so tired it's ridiculous. i have 3 appointments to meet 2 for myself and 1 for dd (one today, and 2 monday), i'm so tired of being the only one to juggle shit-beg work to let me shift change for this and that because i'm the only one that can get dd where she needs to be unless i give him gas money for his gas guzzler that takes A LOT of gas cause it needs repairs we can't afford-can but *I* wont pay for it, and be a parent sign school work cause he "didn't think about it" thus dd's grades are suffering (still a's and b's but she's honor roll capable because HE didn't sign her shit-he got on to her about that until *I* took responsibility then he decided he was going to follow suit) and juggle the bills take care of the schedules, make sure i'm available for everyone to get where they need to be when they need to be there throughout the week and tired of having to put up a disagreement as he calls it to make him figure out juggling his kids on his own. go to work every day though i'm exhausted as hell while i'm getting ready (on my early days) he still laying in bed until i'm ready to walk out the door, then he throws me a lunch together (gets left overs from fridge, and puts them in a bag, no real task there), takes some cigarettes out of my pack (have been hiding those unintentionally-but WORKS FOR ME)

i'm just so sick of it. i'm so ready to not have to report to anyone that i'll be home late, or that we are going to xyz location first then will be home, or have to rush home so HE can do his thing then go do what *I* want/need to do to be a part of my extended family and get time in with dying relatives before it's too late.

i'm so sick of being a bio mom of 1 yet have 3 kids i'm juggling